tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55485876060912802462024-02-07T19:26:36.993+05:30The Curbside Prophet.......whenever you leave,leave obnoxiously.Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comBlogger65125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-12838908665344292812009-06-29T18:26:00.000+05:302009-06-29T19:22:09.589+05:30In the name of godThe documentary we saw today "In the name of god" by anand patwardhan about the Ayodhya issue was unsettling disturbing and very heart wrenching.The following is my personal analysis of the whole documentary.<br /> Firstly what struck me was how superficial the knowldge of these so called religious leaders was.Their arguments regarding it being the ram jamn bhumi were not not satisfying,logically and chronologicaly!!They inturn were supported by dedicated supporters who were iffy about the facts themselves!!The whole brouhaha was actually baseless and it was something which was totally based on assumptions.The hindus said that Barbar plundered and took their land,there "holy" land and constructed the masjid there,however they did not really see how shallow and almost rash they were in aping him!!But this wasnt it,the real problem started when political parties started endorsing either of the stands.This religious movement,like all others went to the dogs when it got a political connotation.The leaders used the bovine thinking of the public to their betterment,and people supported their favourites in order to prove their loyalty!The pro hindu side had its various sub-groups..the youth wing(rss,bajrang dal),the political wing(bjp) and the religious wing VHP.<br /> The irony however was in the fact that the most civilised ones in this entire ordeal were the poor backward classes.Some of them were aloof of the enrire issue,others wanted peace to be restored while the others who were slightly more opiniated supported either of the sides.But their basic story was the same.......the worst affected no matter what religion they belonged to or what side was winning.the religious leaders,epitomes of stubborness,irrational and narrow thinking stuck tp their sides,resisting any and every oppurtunity of coming to a progressive and peaceful compromise.It is funny to see how easily these religious leaders supported these acts of barbarism with non existant religious facts.How easily they twisted and manupilated the truth to suit themselves.......and suddenly wrong was the new wright!!!!<br /> To quote the pujari of the ram mandir......the religious leaders of the VHP were corrupt men,drapped in saffron playing a gimmick.The shocking truth was that educated men supported the staunch almost inhuman ways of these people.The documentary made me believe that religion has now become a brand,which is endorsed buy riots,political figures who dont shy away from making obscene comments about the religious beliefs of others.Its religion Vs love,religion Vs peace,religion Vs tolerance where as it should be a blend of all of these.Its surprising to see how something i never gave importance to,something which was always a secondary part of my identity can become my whole world!!Its incidents like these,which actually put up a question......is india secular only on paper??All the fancy jargon which we live by of "hindu-muslim" being "bhai bhai" actually does not even exist?If hindism is anti "moh-maya" then why do we ignore the fact that these relious leaders are the ones "living the good life",supporting a groundless cause???<br /> In a land where everything works,its so easy manupilate the truth and champion your will!!!These men are like crabs when one wants to do the wright,the others drag him down.Old grudges and past laurels,these are the two main factors of this entire issue.....we cant let go of the past,we fight for it,kill for it and never in this course think about the ramifications of our actions......There is no win win situation in this case.Somebody wins at the cost of someone elses life.At the end i would just like to aks a question.....if winning isnt everything then why do we keep count????Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-58566333110213502042009-06-10T22:05:00.002+05:302009-06-10T23:07:16.599+05:30Been where?Done what?Today was a sad day,that's in a nutshell.Leaving your city.....FINALLY,and all the hassle with it ,is sad ,though you always wanted to do that.You leave behind alot,and take very few along......cause you have to make room for new things and the hassle they bring along.Its a wonder how we all "know" whats it is going to be like when something would happen.Like before it rains,we already "know"........everything would look different,smell different,but when it actually rains its nothing like you had in mind..........and that's when you realize......."I didn't quite know I would fee like THAT".We're no Einsteins......and we're not too experienced,we never are.Its that hollow feeling i get every time i wonder I'm not going to be "home".....its a little unsettling too.....its almost funny,as i kid i would've laughed if someone said "You're not going home for months"........and now i know.....what they mean when they say "I miss home" OR "I miss you!".Its that feeling like a knot in your heart......or your heart tied in chains......only less goth and grotesque.<br /> In retrospect.......i have left so many people behind me,I mean my 3rd standard class-mate was SO special to me cause she helped me cheat.....or my kindergarten best pal was my world cause we had the best places to hide when it came to hide and seek.......or the new girl in the 8th standard who called me her best friend just cause i helped her catching up in the Geography class.....where are all these people,I HAVE NO IDEA.Its amazing how you just move on....like reading a book you go from chapter to chapter,page to page looking for something new,something better,something.......something else!!!!You have your favourite chapters.....with the twists and the turns and you always remember them,even though it was about the good guy dying.Someone else's heartbreak becomes your favourite song,funny the way it is!!<br /> And yes,I'm 19 now.......and for some reason i now realise how important it is to celebrate your own birthday,I always thought it wasn't a big deal cause it comes every year and that birthday parties were a charade(you have to invite people you don't even want to).But now i think they're right,if you think about it you are never going to be 19 again.......you are going to get older and life, more complicated so its a celebration of the twisted life ahead and of the simpler life that went with the previous years...........SO REJOICE!!BE MERRY!!<br /> I also forgave someone........yes my first encounter with forgiveness.......me accepting something as illogical as "forgiveness" was quite a fiat.See its your perception that matters,when you have a grudge its like this invisible anvil yer carrying...AND its heavy.So if you want to live and live well.....forgive the ones who did wrong not cause that's what saints do.......but for the simple reason that an ass would never know how dim he is,for an ass he's like anyone else.If you're smart enough you would cut the poor animal some slack......AND FORGIVE HIM!On a more serious note.......if you want to read the next chapter in the book of your life and if you want the end to be good.......forgive the treacherous bad guy,he's not as bright as you!And believe me,you would finally be able to say......That?Oh that was a long time back!!!!Its all about satisfaction,because happiness is a by-product,don't run after it,its elusive........its like one of those sci-fi whodunits.......when you think you know what the bad guys want.....but in the end its a TOTAL shock!<br /> In the end all i would want to say is that its not a fairy tale we live in,where logic dies a tragic death......and fantasies have a field day,its life, its not a bitch or unfair or fair or beautiful.....or maybe its all of it,so stop putting yer life in a box with a big label on it,it doesn't need one,its like an unfinished journal..where bad things can also happen to good people and evil can behead the good and go to Hard Rock cafe and celebrate........so just live it,leave the typecasting to others........who would do it with pleasure once you're dead!<br /><br />psst-And yes.....you can love your life if you want,that's totally legitimate!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-63361897434628428242009-05-16T15:44:00.002+05:302009-05-16T15:58:04.049+05:30Ello Mrazzies!<script type="text/javascript" src="http://widgets.clearspring.com/o/4a02351a35de0ef8/4a0e91fd84cc9dbd/4a0e0e1800bdcaad/4ebb181e/widget.js"></script><br /><br /><br />PSST-Mraz is gonna be on the American Idol Finale......on 20th may,WATCH OUT FOR IT!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-36404076568284503862009-05-14T23:21:00.002+05:302009-05-14T23:35:09.134+05:30Things that make you go...Hmmmmm?OK Tu Bole Main Boloon......rings a bell???hells bells!!!!OFCOURSE IT DOES!!Rehman pulled of a jazz/blues song,how could you miss THAT!!!Anyway,the lyrics are just delcious........like a royal piece o brownie dripping with chocolate.........BUT HEY,watch out for the nuts!!YEP!There is an equally good song(er,EPIC song actually.............to some!)"Hello Goodbye" by(fan fare,drum roll.....and a glorious DU-UH)THE BEATLES!Well the point of all this useless typing is to give you the proofs and then.....STRIKE!Well the lyrics are akin.........very much the same,well the feel to the songs are similar if you just read the lyrics,obviously one has snazzy sax work,the other is well signature Beatles.......... i guess the director of JTYJN,Abbas Tyrewaala could be a BIG fan of the song or maybe not...............who knows,jaane tu ya jaane na.........er,as the song goes ;)<br /><br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/MNK_lj0pgSE&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/MNK_lj0pgSE&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Gr7X4vFlVHM&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Gr7X4vFlVHM&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br />psst-I'm guessing the words you're looking for are "hmmmmm weird" or "wow shes so right on the money!!!" or "i worship her"Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-63143834146711000762009-05-13T11:08:00.004+05:302009-05-13T11:56:28.259+05:30Old just gets hotter!Well this is like an ancient controversy but its a controversy nonetheless.It seemed The Beatles had penchant for lifting stuff from Chuck Berry's songs.and this wasn't the only instance.However,"Come Together" went on to be come a smash number,and how!!This blues rock number even though claimed to be "closely resembling",Berry's You can't Catch Me.........is undoubtedly a revolutionary song,from the drums,to the vocals and even the backing vocals,the song has a sexy edge to it.Rolling Stone ranked "Come Together" at #202 on their list of the 500 Greatest Songs of All Time.It was also covered by Aerosmith,one on the best covers of all times,though one of the worst movies ever(Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band)WHATTA BUMMER!!!<br /> The lyrics have always been a hot topic of discussion amongst Beatles enthusiasts,ranging from a junkies number to a song with random gibberish to a song about the four Beatles!!At the end of the day it was a campaign song for Timothy Leary,who was dear friend of Lennon.In a playboy interview Lennon said""The thing was created in the studio. It's gobbledygook. 'Come Together' was an expression that Tim Leary had come up with for (perhaps for the governorship of California against Reagan), and he asked me to write a campaign song. I tried and I tried, but I couldn't come up with one. But I came up with this, 'Come Together,' which would've been no good to him - you couldn't have a campaign song like that, right?"<br /> The signature slow bassy sound of the song was McCartney's work.Ringo came up with this signature muffled drum sound by wrapping towels around his snares and toms,genius i say!!!And how could we possibly sideline the eerie almost incomprehensible sound that Lennon makes which sounds like "shoot" but actually is "shoot me ",the "me" is drowned my McCartney's bass!<br /> So amongst all the incoherent references,riff lifting controversy,this is one hot song........the song i hope they play when people go to heaven,but I'm guessing George and John wouldn't really do justice to the song all by themselves,it takes four to make The Beatles ;)<br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Vd38yrWx2o0&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Vd38yrWx2o0&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/gTp_xxRJaK0&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x402061&color2=0x9461ca&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/gTp_xxRJaK0&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x402061&color2=0x9461ca&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/VokZ_GGZ5yY&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/VokZ_GGZ5yY&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br />psst-3 videos sure can rock the hell outta anyone!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-64571270891174439472009-05-12T14:23:00.005+05:302009-05-12T14:41:32.780+05:30A new Nutini :)<object width="400" height="224"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=4312002&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1"><embed src="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=4312002&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="400" height="224"></embed></object><p><a href="http://vimeo.com/4312002">Paolo Nutini - Candy</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/user1452493">Nikke Osterback</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.</p><br /><br />SONG-Candy<br /><br />A brand new Paolo,with a neater /shorter haircut.........definitely cooler......kinna grown up too.He's looking like a young Bob Dylan in this video,a young Mexican Bob Dylan,hahahhahhahah....THIS is not the Nutini we saw in those Puma adverts,now is it??.........for now all i can say is new single out on May 18th and new album out on June 1st!!!!<br /><br /><br />psst-YOWZA!!!!!!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-86542647420802117192009-05-10T10:10:00.004+05:302009-05-13T15:31:47.765+05:30Songs that make me go green (with envy)OK this a song by the uber cool Mr Mraz.Now we all know Jason for the cool acoustic stuff he usually pulls off.His videos are never larger than life or anything,......which kinna does justice to his music otherwise they would've seemed a little kitch,dont you think?Anyway this one right here Make It Mine,has more of the bluesy swagger,with the sax very smartly used,not making it totally jazzy yet giving it another dimension......on some instances making it sound like a perfect lounge number.Mraz has a great voice and the harmony in the song is the perfect example o that.The lyrics have been a Mraz forte and this song has some real good bits especially"I keep my life on a heavy rotation<br />Requesting that it's lifting you up, up, up and away<br />And over to a table at the gratitude cafe<br />And I am finally there,<br />And all the angels they'll be singing<br />"I love this."................well at the end i will quote a wise lady........"Mraz is smoking hot";)<br /><br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/jr8PKFS0D8k&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/jr8PKFS0D8k&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />psst-Someone take me to Cafe Gratitude.........and get me a Visa,and a private jet,yeah that'll be all!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-85931426126751732342009-05-09T22:17:00.002+05:302009-05-09T22:29:54.172+05:30<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3JkzXS8QxVwZGYT3M4u6g4UYTw1fH6OrtYGyjyZdzZiqb3oBFc1OK1ZhSIFz_TqKIweFPZHMK1A1i9C5wh5xY6ZrLNlB48LGQSQfZI1h7K2ycyGjlQ16rzLKFMZiW8k_uODKTb1dUcdw/s1600-h/oh_hell_yes_by_monkboyrc.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 294px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3JkzXS8QxVwZGYT3M4u6g4UYTw1fH6OrtYGyjyZdzZiqb3oBFc1OK1ZhSIFz_TqKIweFPZHMK1A1i9C5wh5xY6ZrLNlB48LGQSQfZI1h7K2ycyGjlQ16rzLKFMZiW8k_uODKTb1dUcdw/s320/oh_hell_yes_by_monkboyrc.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333869976972804994" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:180%;">My blog is not dead...... just so that all of you know........its doing breathing exercises-<br /><br /><br />INHALE.................EXHALE......it kills all the negative energy inside you,and leaves you gasping for breathe!!!So it will return once all the negativity is dead.....or when one o the lungs get punctured.<br /><br /><br />psst-I don't slander,we're all aware of the monsters we are.......and some of us are with empty rib cages!<br /><br /><br /></span></span></span>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-13977681155260515282009-05-09T22:05:00.001+05:302009-05-09T22:06:42.309+05:30Get a line(5)Today i got up in the morning and i realised................................<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />KARMA IS NOT MY BITCH!!!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-58029412042106681832009-05-08T08:56:00.001+05:302009-05-08T08:59:56.560+05:30Get aline (4)Hey even The Bard was a bender!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/gay%20pride%20sign" target="_blank"><img src="http://i196.photobucket.com/albums/aa168/jens369/Lesbian%20and%20Gay%20Pride%20stuff/Gay-Pride.jpg" border="0" alt="Gay pride sign Pictures, Images and Photos"/></a>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-33103427345076184882009-05-07T23:24:00.006+05:302009-05-07T23:42:44.969+05:30Get a line (3)Gypped girl-I don't know why it happens every time to me,WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!?!?! I have cried my heart out,had sleepless nights,wondered what went wrong.Do i deserve this?!?!I feel so dwarfed,i feel so heartbroken........m so lost..........just when i needed him,he went away. He was a snitch.A SELF INDULDGENT,SELFISH.....A-GRADE PIG...A HORRIBLE SNITCH!WHY GOD WHY?!!?!WHERE DID HE GO GOD !!!!!WHERE ?!?!?!?!?<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">God-*yawns*.........er....did you check his facebook?</span></span>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-88584042633718847862009-05-07T16:09:00.001+05:302009-05-07T23:29:42.759+05:30Get a line( 2)<span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="font-size:130%;">Lust got X-ray vision after stabbing Love in the eyes.........TWICE!CHARMING!<br /></span></span>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-36056899881231795882009-05-06T09:40:00.003+05:302009-05-07T23:36:31.226+05:30Get a line!Looking around...........still looking around,eagerly looking around......desperately looking.......GRABS A SPOON :)<br /><br /><br />psst-apropos to F.R.I.E.N.D.S season 1.....episode 3 i guess!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-37892601252197699292009-05-05T19:12:00.002+05:302009-05-06T19:29:21.727+05:30Songs that make me go green(with envy)-PART 1ah from the vid,to the lyrics to the whole music.........the vox,Daniel Powters got the chops and this is one perfect song,i tried to find some flaw but i wasn't quite successful.............I AM "J"!The best bit about this song is(well amongst a bunch o them)that,well it makes you romanticize a "bad day"........and you feel good somehow.This ones in my list o classic songs WITH a stellar of a video!!!Ah i wish i had written this!!<br /><br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/RmNTAvnSais&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/RmNTAvnSais&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />psst- i know this isn't the vid.........but i just thought a karaoke wud be better,I'm sure most beg to differ....AND the guy who reminded me off this a-grade song,rahul,thanks man...i had TOTALLY forgotten!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-68034072648218946002009-05-02T18:12:00.002+05:302009-05-07T23:52:40.144+05:30<span style="font-size:180%;">When yer exam is too easy.....it ain't <span style="font-style: italic;">bitchen.</span></span>...............<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:180%;">ITS A BITCH!</span></span></span>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-76346076052024419542009-03-29T10:12:00.007+05:302009-03-29T18:07:51.623+05:30<span style="font-size:180%;">HATE........<span style="font-size:85%;">today's word,the feeling when you wish someone would jump off their ass and die.I have finally felt it,and it sure gives you a kick...........to a new found freedom from some old threads, to this bright new feeling and for finally realising the difference between getting <span style="font-style: italic;">floored </span>and <span style="font-style: italic;">fooled</span>(Ladies,high time!) And peeps,black is the new white................if you know what i mean ;)<br /><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-size:130%;">DISCLAIMER<br /><span style="font-size:100%;">No one was hurt during the writing of this post.</span><br /></span></span></span></span>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-16335654951824656012009-01-28T12:55:00.009+05:302009-02-01T16:09:56.927+05:30The Three Gorgons(Past,present and the future)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS53ddYPZkbPxKP7A9Jh3PB7-o8vcZOkH3aiC3dCjTmep3VvcyCvEruBebEWoqP4hoQKE6lpC0up28TlLZ04lEenlCAOnqeOTFxafDkXMh3WIlO83j4woySNNbObjQzj7FwjWDDEGGhp4/s1600-h/past__present__future_by_rhianaaa.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 226px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS53ddYPZkbPxKP7A9Jh3PB7-o8vcZOkH3aiC3dCjTmep3VvcyCvEruBebEWoqP4hoQKE6lpC0up28TlLZ04lEenlCAOnqeOTFxafDkXMh3WIlO83j4woySNNbObjQzj7FwjWDDEGGhp4/s320/past__present__future_by_rhianaaa.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5296269125528912306" border="0" /></a><br />Future.........something which probably makes half the things in our life actually happen!Its a wonder how we always glorify our past and romanticize our future but always sideline our present.The greed for a better future is something hard to give up,we probably would never get out of our beds if there was no "future" waiting to be created by US!But then putting your present on the back burner is that right?Have we started taking our present for granted?Or did we always do that and probably never realised till the word "hindsight" came into existence?AH, questions questions and some more of them,I have been wondering alot and i still don't get tired of it.You know those cliches of <span style="font-style: italic;">life is so short</span> or<span style="font-style: italic;"> life is a bitch</span> well do make sense,besides the fact that life is more of a tramp than bitch.No seriously life is short,before you even know,your FUTURE is already your PAST!!!think about it,it happens every single day,even now,but we all are SO use to it and we live so peacefully with this fact that all we know is how to make up for a <span style="font-style: italic;">fucked up</span> past is our future.It is a wonder how we let things go by right in front of us and only realise later,so many times........it aches and its horrible to feel ,well er,.............LIKE AN ASS!!Hhahahhaahh,and funnier is the fact how we feel "indebted" to the one who made us realise all those thing.<br /> Sometimes I wonder,do we only value those things which are in our past?Is regret for the past greater than hope for the future?Its a tricky question ain't it,scary too,cause we all have plans,which probably brighten our day and well make us feel that things are taking shape,or that the future isn't a total stranger to us............a sweet acquaintance maybe!So, what if something has no place in your past but sure has a plum place in your future,will you,are you willing to give it the same weightage?Because no matter how much of a daredevil streak we have,the insurance companies are making money cause of people like you and me!!!We are scared,aren't we?Well there shouldn't me any shame in saying <span style="font-style: italic;">yes</span> to that,anticipation is not a felony,it might just save a life!!!I have always tried to do the impossible(which has nothing to do with the t-shirt quote-<span style="font-style: italic;">trying to slam a revolving door!!!</span>), to have a future with the best of my past or present.............present well ,cause when you're thinking of the future, the present is already GONE!!SWOOOOOOOOOOOOOSH!I however do give up very soon,and decide to live in the moment,know what I want right now,cause I'm HERE not THERE.........and that makes me the king of my world!I don't know about life but the present sure is my <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;">bitch<span style="font-style: italic;">!!!</span></span></span></span>And i meant it in the best possible way(if there is one).So for me, people who go like "love you always"OR "hate you till the day i die" at the drop of a hat,are actually sweet ol foolish people,who very soon are going to break hearts..........m counting <span style="font-style: italic;">theirs</span> too!!!Because my friends always is LOOOOOOOOOONG,forever is LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONGER(cause it has an extra letter,i guess)so when you say it the other person DOES believe it,and if doesn't work out you get a bad name.Flying and soaring is fine,its fun building up stuff........but seriously do me one big favour,how many times have you said <span style="font-style: italic;"> forever <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;">or always</span></span></span> and actually done that.I'm sure alot of of times you did it,but not every single time?Or well I'm sure there are those too who hardly do it,and yet cant get enough of saying the blessed words!!!!!<br /> I'm not the wind of change and I'm not here to make a point,I'm not even telling you all to think about what i just said(like I can stop that from happening!!)I'm just trying to say that its always better to hang on to something credible,like wouldn't you prefer QuickFix over glue(we're not talking bout playing people,serious talk here please!!)Its always better to know what you HAVE before you yearn for what you don't!So,today just do this little thing,go kiss your doormat.................AAAAAAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA.oh man!!!!!That was a long laugh!What i meant is,go kiss someone whose THERE with you,cause the ones who aren't might never be!But then i can't stop you from hoping,now can i?I just mean to say that don't forget to look around from time to time and love what you HAVE,and if there is new stuff coming,hell we can always make room ,right?I guess being a little <span style="font-style: italic;">human </span>nowadays is pansy behaviors,<span style="font-style: italic;">giving a shit </span>that's the real McCoy eh!??!!Fine then I like pansy.........BITE ME!!<br /><br /><br />PSST-someone very young and wise,someone ME once said-if tomorrow is another yesterday I prefer today!Sigh,somethings last forever ,cause I'm HERE and I still stand by that.<br /><br />psst-Greek mythology is like quick sand.......trust me it just gets to you!!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/65/5122F849F91E8A04DA5DB06E6F579350.png" style="border: 0 !important; background: transparent;"/></a>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-55869808276635070992008-12-11T03:26:00.008+05:302009-02-01T13:55:20.311+05:30A Death Doesn't Always Kill.Curbside Prophet's Note-I am old ,so old i have a beard now............AAAAAAAAAAA,YEAH YOU'D WISH!!!!Sorry folks its just a poem for now!!OK well as i have made it clear poems are only written when there is no logical conclusion to the pitiful condition around you.When you are overwhelmed,er...........when I am,rather.So here it is a poem,the fruit o frustration and yet its pretty,free flowing and HEY!!IT makes me happy awrite!well its not a sob story,its a poem which eulogises sadness,shows how sometimes being sad could make you do things(positive things)which happiness can never do.I use a bit of mockery for "happy people",quite loosely put,but its not going to make you wanna be sad than happy(AWRITE!!! THE MOCKERY STOPS HERE,I promise).On a more serious note,sometimes its not about the root of the pain,its about who comes along and saves you,helps you recover(could be anyone,for me the pizza guy).I compare sadness to death here,death for me is the apogee of both happiness and sadness.And "death"over here is not physical death,cause i believe its not the end of pain.I don't know how it feels when you are dying but I'm sure you cant explain or you are overwhelmed enough to write a poem about it;)!!!!!!!!<br /><br />Its hard to know sometimes what you feel,<br />Its not a wound,but you still want it to heal,<br />The heaviness pulling you down,<br />Its better not to swim but to drown,<br />You close your eyes hoping to see,<br />An empty space,with just you and me,<br />Who you are,I am yet to know,<br />The one who can make it rain,the one who can make it snow.<br /><br />The tragic life of a happy person makes me weep,<br />Because they never get to go too far,too deep,<br />The world of wonder is for the ones who cry,<br />And new starts are for the ones who die,<br />You look up and stare,like that could make it rain,<br />Your eyes do it for you,when yer foolish efforts are in vain.<br /><br />A promise is a promise,a kiss is a kiss,<br />All fancy jargon makes sense when in a state of bliss,<br />Oh I could fight the winds,I could fight the sea,<br />But i cant fight the tempest inside me,<br />You need to come along,be whoever you want to be,<br />To save a life,to save me from me.......<br /><br />psst-Hmmmm,the problems within you(read:not asthma)are the hardest to counter.Its you who start it but you always need someone else to make it right.Logic doesn't apply here,THIS world is bereft of all logic,this world is a sucker for comfort,for reverse psychology.......this world doesn't need a solution,it needs someone who can suffer the wrath with them.............WEIRD WORLD, I SAY!!!<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/65/5122F849F91E8A04DA5DB06E6F579350.png" style="border: 0pt none ! important; background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial;" /></a>Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-71980129701231158212008-12-05T13:29:00.007+05:302008-12-08T14:01:17.970+05:30I forgive but i don't forget......THE REDUNDANT THEORY!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwjhEkK6rIL_QHH1sWES8_hOBa1jV20UzVbRRmZ2k3b6T5iH4Wyjz2ICm5dzKFFNsYxyB9PMtL7deVtT6md4VIXSc0i8tatbeEcRlFH8BOq2-z0JF4F7eUPetat1xhsgbidpixuc-MIeI/s1600-h/letters_to_you_by_kerplunk777.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwjhEkK6rIL_QHH1sWES8_hOBa1jV20UzVbRRmZ2k3b6T5iH4Wyjz2ICm5dzKFFNsYxyB9PMtL7deVtT6md4VIXSc0i8tatbeEcRlFH8BOq2-z0JF4F7eUPetat1xhsgbidpixuc-MIeI/s320/letters_to_you_by_kerplunk777.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5276924207129690514" border="0" /></a><br /><span><span class="txt_1">The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me<br />So why can't, you forgive me?<br />I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else<br />But you<br /> du du du du du du du du du du.........(what aye start,well the songs nice and sweet and has many verses but i guess i just wanted to hear this one,sigh!)<br /></span></span><br /><br />Forgiving and forgetting,issue?!?!IT IS,isn't it?People say they forgive but don't forget,somehow it makes no sense how can you TRULY forgive someone and yet keep some o back as <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">memoria</span> ,that's not forgiving is it?Cause every time you stumble on that particular memory you do feel the pain,slight pain...........and pain means its still there,ALL OF IT!!!!So when do you ACTUALLY forgive,like in the true sense,when you just don't remember it at all.........like wiped out totally,dead towards it.Its a wonder how we move on like nothing happened,start a fresh chapter and hope to bury the "unfortunate" events deep enough so that they never resurface.The ghost of it still haunts you,probably when you see familiar faces or come across a similar situation or see happy people who never had to deal with "IT" or probably when you go through previous chats..........I HATE THIS FEATURE!I mean I have the stupid "power" to put myself in my position(a while back)and feel the same,THE SAME..........the way i felt THEN,and hate the same person with the same intensity!!!!Don't you see its not normal,I mean i am supposedly "over it"...............i have "moved on".........i have "conquered" my foolish heart...........I HAVE "FORGIVEN"........REALLY?!?!?!?!?HAVE I?!?!?!<br /> Its not normal,i mean i don't hate them anymore...........I am ME with them,its all in the past,which is not something i should deal with,I DON'T NEED TO.Life is so much better now,life is great, the dark phase is over...........then why do i still feel bad for me.............me, THEN.I haven't quite gotten over that have i!?!?Its so lame and its like <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">frozen in</span> my memory,i cant stop myself from feeling the same.If, we in reality do not forget,in the true sense,then why do we brag about being magnanimous?Why does this term exist?Fake,fake, fake!!isn't it?And if you actually did forget the whole <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">mumbo</span> jumbo the very next day,then i say you never were sorry for it in the first place!People do feel sorry later,don't they?<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Hhahahhahahhah</span>,funny isn't it "Oh I'm feeling so sorry i didn't feel sorry earlier!".And what about judgements,i mean you gotta make them sometime,so what should you consider,what should you believe.............consider this little chit-chat,<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Dik</span>-I don't think its worth it(I'm not sure,but I'm getting there,am i???)<br />Gina(with a j)-Fine,lets do this, would save us <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">alota</span> grief(<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">WHA</span>!??!<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">WHA</span>?!?!<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">WHA</span>?!?!DID I JUST SAY THAT,<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">NOOOOOOOO</span>!!!)<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Dik</span>-Really?!?! you think so?(Now I'm not happy!!!why?)<br />Gina-why don't you???(JUST SAY NO!!!)<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Dik</span>-no no,i still stand by it,lets do it the nice way(er.....i guess!)<br />Gina- yeah nice and FAST,I've got work(YEAH YOU LOSER,I HAVE TO CALL UP BY BEST PAL AND SOB <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA</span>!!!!)<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">Dik</span>-sigh,its pretty much over(PHEW!!!!OH WAIT!!!)<br />Gina-Yeah,nice talking(PUT A BULLET THROUGH YOUR HEAD!)<br /> disconnects the line<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">Dik</span>-OH!! wait i mean its over...no pretty much over.........er........hello?!?hello?!?!(FUCK!)<br /><br />SO..............consider this,now by some miracle it all gets back into place,it all gets fine......back to where it should ave been,the pieces of the puzzle in the right pattern,couldn't get better............would you FORGET all of it...........ALL of it,I mean even if someone ties you up and rants about it?Now some o you will say how can that happen you are bound to recall stuff if people talk about it.But then my answer to them is,forgetting means totally wiping it off,killing it,being all dead towards it.And it totally works in the other <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">scenario</span> too,when you do something mean and real bad(<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">that's</span> how we put it!)HOW CAN YOU FORGIVE YOURSELF!!I did stuff to people and frankly yeah i am ashamed of it,THERE I SAID IT,I cant just forget it,so how would they,should they? could they?Its tricky and i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">don't</span> really know what works or how it works! Hence we all actually never forget..........and not forgetting means you know exactly how it felt yer experience stays with you,OH it brings you down!!!And while some play it safe others make the same mistakes over and over again..........its a never ending process.........and its fascinating how you can love and hate the same object and yet find a way to live it.............IN PEACE!<br /><br />psst-I'm your Agony Aunt today.If you're like me who keeps back little things cause they seem indispensable..........THROW IT,GO CLEAN YOU BOX,THROW THOSE LITTLE NOTES,RITE NOW!!!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-24500569896768186702008-11-05T11:51:00.009+05:302008-11-05T14:32:27.149+05:30Oh bummer?!?!Neh uh.......OBAMA!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" 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href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3hLlZbJUXXu3-BK9omIVDy_T9Op86OGAm6Nv4C5ovMoKXPajKKahFtGxXnROWHjVxPSgwJeURrRjW54CcrSdSOukL95cREHmnoZivFosWmuBCRPJw3K8-wTxNQwPu_LF2dRTEtSwnrVM/s1600-h/heidiklumaskali.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 199px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3hLlZbJUXXu3-BK9omIVDy_T9Op86OGAm6Nv4C5ovMoKXPajKKahFtGxXnROWHjVxPSgwJeURrRjW54CcrSdSOukL95cREHmnoZivFosWmuBCRPJw3K8-wTxNQwPu_LF2dRTEtSwnrVM/s320/heidiklumaskali.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5265093817069371026" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />sigh.......morning!ah lovely day,WEDNESDAY!I had a good sleep yesterday.........good as in i was in bed by 12 and i got up at 6:30a.m. so every ones happy......everything in place after a long time,every things normal,in place i guess........YAY!!!!Anyway,i realised i had been sleeping for TOO long cause i didn't even realise Alex Turner had a side project going on,which btw is a FULL FLEDGED band now--The Last Shadow Puppets.AND so today when i was surfing through the NME cool list 2008 i discovered the existence of it,OMFG!!!!HOW COULD I MISS IT,DAMN!!!!But something else made up for my sorrow.......Julian Casablancas IS NOT EVEN ON THE LIST(khee khee khee).OH THE JOY!!!!ahhahahhhahah,well not so much,I'm neutral.........I don't give aye damn.....or maybe i do..but I'm just happy!And they've got real good music(m not talk bout the boys who stroke themselves,HAHAHHAHHAHAH,they're nice too)nothing like the Arctic Monkeys,but for people who have heard them too much(like me)you might just feel they do sound like AM a bit,but thats just because Turner is the front man..........try not to compare too much and they will sound different,I PROMISE!<br /> AND i also realised some people have real funny nicknames man,real funny ones........chikni,tim tim,KITTU,rim jhim..................HAHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAH.And their actual names are like such a stark contrast to them,like real grim,serious ,NICE names.......with a meaning of course.Its like their parents wanted to make up for the seriousness of their actual names,or probably their life was so dull the only way they could get a kick outta it was by calling out for their kids......"rim jhim!!!!"ahhahhahhahahhahahah.Or well its some way to get back at them,you know how kids could be, maggot pies!!!.........but then that makes no sense cause kids are nice little things....puppies and kids,AWWWWWWWSOME!But really,WHY!?!??!Why do parents do this,i mean its a blunder,it could scar their future........i mean really, a guy you're going out with,with a nice name,ACTUALLY turns out to be "tinku"......damn..........I CANT KEEP A SERIOUS FACE THEN,HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAH.............see........imagine what will the poor ol hunk feel.Hehhehehheh,but WHAT ME WORRY......I've got a nice nickname........AND an equally nice name........But its got adverse effects too,no one gets it right in the first go.I still remember my name being printed all wrong on the Christmas Service sheets,in the Principals Report,on the music competition certificates...............IT WAS EXASPERATING!!!!!!People say "Whats in a name?",but hey it means quite a bit........OH TRUST ME........there are hunky names,pretty names,original names,common names,scary names,heavy names(the volume of the name,i bet you guessed that already)...........so its not like you can get away with a name like Dhananjay(HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHA,I just find it funny) without those initial raised eye brow expressions!!<br /> So don't do this to your kids,unless kids are the source of all the remorse in the world,FOR YOU!!!But otherwise..........HELL AWAITS YOU,and there is nothing more pathetic and devastating than to rot in hell with heart breakers,nymphomaniacs,Ted Bundy and Metal posers(BLOODY SELL OUTS!)<br /><br />Halloween went by,not a big deal in India but well Hiedi Klums dress up sure was,AND HEY HEY HEY!!!!!!!OBAMA'S IN THE HOUSE,WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!HOLLA SIZZLE,OBAMA MAH MAN'S THE NEW PREZ.I guess my anti-American feelings might just melt in to some orgasmic Jazz,yeah.And well life which was a Cradle of Filth( Dani Filth doesn't really make my day!!!!)is Jazz right now..........i feel old and satisfied,55 and lived a life.........see now that's a place i wanna be in,sigh!In all I'm alive and m not really cribbing too much..........plus,WINTERS ARE HERE.AH,winters in my city are the best...........the spookiest places are actually the mushiest of the lot,ah I'm so happy winters are here,winters are like a sign that its all over,good or bad that's for you too deal with.I've had beautiful sad winters,OH winter nights could be SAD.............but theres this pretty thing about them you cant get over,the weather and the streets get all deserted,the mist and in the dark the huge trees seem even bigger it almost seems like they own the sidewalks,the bad lighting on the streets,which seemed like a nuisance,just seems to add on to the whole backdrop,and the moon.........oh i would swoon if someone even mentioned Jazz right now.......WINTERS WINTERS WINTERS!!!!And then Christmas...........carols, the singing and the celebrations,MY FAVOURITE TIME!!!!!Sigh,i hope i have a winter death...............i wanna live the winter and then go..........BUT WHOSE DYING !!!!ITS TIME TO KILL,nah,i forgive all those motherlickers who have pissed me off lately in ANYWAY,you guys are not worth it,I hope you all die a natural death,i don't wanna rush anything ;)<br /><br />PSST-na n now that tha don't kill me,can only make me stronger...i need you to hurry up now.......cause i cant wait much longer......ISNT IT PLAYIN!?!??!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-7947793156988212212008-10-29T20:56:00.005+05:302008-11-04T12:46:34.387+05:30Festive H[Bl]ues!!pff<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirP6zP14i4w5YSQ2OUyajT12GB0ABVWpZRBK4JJXFIsCZehTOKkVM-hns0Savd0pDeWY2kDRXkIjUM_U8qBQiGoWpWRz74cPayAZIDgdceGC-_FiTNhkEkqaZibacW0FaZfpTF2NKHVSI/s1600-h/blah_by_axxon.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirP6zP14i4w5YSQ2OUyajT12GB0ABVWpZRBK4JJXFIsCZehTOKkVM-hns0Savd0pDeWY2kDRXkIjUM_U8qBQiGoWpWRz74cPayAZIDgdceGC-_FiTNhkEkqaZibacW0FaZfpTF2NKHVSI/s320/blah_by_axxon.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5262648334428689170" border="0" /></a><br />OK,someone once said"When you are high,the only place you are going next is down!".Well yeah that was me and i guess i wasn't too sure how right i was,I mean bang bang on correct.HIGH!!Oh i was and you know when you are all high,OK I'll make it simple, high as in happy,glad,satisfied........that kinds ,and not grass, weed and the works.Its quite a cocky state trust me i mean,you are blissfully ignorant of the following [mis]haps.Diwali,interesting time.........no seriously its so interesting i mean even though we talk bout"peace,love,harmony"and pray every ones happy and bright,no ones even a tad bit sad or down.So much of wishing and hoping and waiting.............waiting,cause when you wish and hope you have to wait,that's the whole idea you know,its like a chain reaction,if it all goes well you kinna give into it and you BELIEVE "it all happens".And if it doesn't you either take the "wishing harder" road or you just give up,but either way its a let down,Beautiful letdown........I always believe you should never make commitments or promises when you are too high,cause you are NOT going to stay in the same drugged state..........i mean HAPPY state.<br /> You know its easy to be self deprecating,on festivals ESPECIALLY.I mean you just feel you are a relationship wrecker,even though you haven't er.........exactly done anything too bad.I AM NOT REALLY SIDING WITH MYSELF,but its true its something about the air,its all bright and pretty...............and it doesn't seem right if you've got an ugly sticky situation to deal with,its just not befitting(oh i so hate this word,its too cockney).And you know no matter how much i try to make it all straight and plain,i just keep up with issues..........like i put myself into something without even realizing,I MIGHT NEVER BE ABLE TO GET OUTTA IT.Its the perfect thing to ruin your day and in the hindsight also ruins a major chunk of your life,no seriously.........ITS A CHAIN REACTION(OK I'm quite bored with this expression).But really it all is this disease..........and i mean it,like a cold i have and my throat hurts so crying is not an option,and it shouldn't really be.......its no use,it just makes you get super exhausted its not even rewarding like some workout.I don't know but lifes funny you know,i mean sometimes you don't really do anything for someone but they go outta their way to thank you cause you apparently made them realise something SO big,ha,it actually is nothing.........something so basic and well obvious that its a wonder how they didn't see it coming.And i don't even know how many of those "OMG,you changed the way i think" speeches i can take,because basically i don't change them as a person,its just a momentary thing............THEY don't change.I really wish i could actually change the way they think but that's like wishful thinking.On the other hand when you actually try to teach them something,you end up getting hurt and you learn,DON'T MESS WITH THE ZOHAN........HAHAHAHHAHHAHAH,no don't mess with the forces of nature,YOU REALLY CAN'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE(i always thought i could,sigh )<br /> Its tough being the man in a relationship,I don't mean the one who has a willie i mean the one who actually lives up to all the fancy jargon once uttered out with so much conviction,that is why i say don't promise when you can barely feel the earth beneath yer feet,you're gonna come down sometime babe!Its such a wonder something which doesn't go outta fashion,trend,talks,interest and mind is love.Its the common factor always...............someones outta it,or planning and someones starting with it and someones in the "you changed my life" period,AND I STILL BUY IT!Its something everyone cashes on,movies do that star crossed lovers............OH THEY DIG IT,and then music every goddamn song has it.It amazes me,how popular love is,makes me so jealous!yesterday i actually felt the world getting back at me,like it was waiting to explode for a long long time.................it was all so calm before,like very uncanny,the kinds which make you feel scared cause you know whats coming is loud,i felt it too.Its a big mess,and i have so much time to clean it,but its not exactly what i want cause I've to throw everything then,and i don't really wanna do that.<br /> I also realised festivals are an excuse to make a fool of yourself,in the name of "festive spirit",i caught it too...........i did something i was embarrassed bout later in the morning,but maybe that was the last thing i could do to make me feel good about having something or probably hoping i still have it.HOPE,ah kills you............you have to wait,its for the brave hearted,who are ready to take the negative and still not go"I DON'T BELIEVE IN THIS THING NO MORE".Sometimes you have to give up things no matter how nice they look or how perfect they seem,cause if those things are of no help in crisis they are nothing but confetti........looks nice, but it cant make your dead dogs carcass pretty,can it??So you be the sensible person and give them up,OUCH!!!Hurts man...........its not that easy eh?!?!?But hey they say "the best things in life are hard to get!"...........i smell the irony,its too strong!<br /><br />P.S.-sleepingover things wont help..............cause you'll wake up sometime and realise the kitchens flooded.......and the cat drank all the milk!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-19085265933920560242008-10-03T23:13:00.004+05:302008-10-04T00:41:38.701+05:30Grow Up!!!How much?!?!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6g_rTyKhhAittNaROn6d7nc59bWhmITqU3qYA-QWBoxibu2ELnbsAEHdYKOea_dhjmvXG4SY2FGawcakd7pfD4PRFbvShk_wqh4LcHPhPI03V_LgRvPotp2F7C5VsVG0jdkqbIvHqzJo/s1600-h/stone_age_beaverman_by_striffle.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6g_rTyKhhAittNaROn6d7nc59bWhmITqU3qYA-QWBoxibu2ELnbsAEHdYKOea_dhjmvXG4SY2FGawcakd7pfD4PRFbvShk_wqh4LcHPhPI03V_LgRvPotp2F7C5VsVG0jdkqbIvHqzJo/s320/stone_age_beaverman_by_striffle.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253005294455085906" border="0" /></a><br />OKAY!!!!you know that's like the biggest issue,we deal with it everyday,don't we.........i mean lets get down and dirty,shall we?!?!Straight to the bloody deal huh!?!?No intros,no ice breakers,beating around the bush and no Blogger-friendly starts!!!How grown up are you,ARE WE?Exactly,what this bbbbbbloody term means i have yet to find out.They say "Grow-up"but never specify how much,what in the mighty hell would prove it,prove that WE'RE GROWN UPS!!!What kinna behaviour,antics would make us qualified enough to be considered "smart and mature" .MATURITY!!!oh yes the other favourite, puberty ain't enough man,it needs MUCH MORE than just that,what?? you ask........Do you think i have the wise answer,nope wrong person,sorry to disappoint you!!!<br /> Cause well apparently i am living among fools ,fools who think they have "grown up".I mean seriously,what makes you think YOU are a grown up???Just cause you get Jazz,you can solve the trickiest fights in a jiffy,Hitchcock's movies make sense to you,your mom's stop whacking you and well you and your brother/sister don't fight like two bush babies...DOESN'T mean you are by any standards "grown up",because your "immature moment" will come,OH IT BLOODY WILL!Trust me,and all your dreams and whims of "AH I'm SO fly,so mature" will come crashing down.When we say we have grown up,we're so over THAT immature phase what exactly do we mean?Especially in relationships,i mean does that mean you don't think of pick up lines or corny stuff to make the other person feel nice.Does it mean you don't think of how you would wanna make out or plan how you would pick up a fight?YOU STILL DO THAT!!!!!so what makes you think you have reached that stage when people wont even dare to call you a"kid".I don't know where i stand and you know what I REALLY AM NOT BOTHERED.It eludes me,always.People say they have grown up,and then they do the most unreasonable of things,so where does it leave the others.........it leaves them looking like a fool,a fool who fell for the very elaborate declaration of "I have grown up!".<br /> I think its the biggest mistake we make,when we try to keep track of how much we have grown up, to suit our age.Its not like measuring height people,its the metamorphosis of a whole persona,how can you give a verdict with such finality??Its easy said,talking about kids or mortgage or marriage doesn't make one mature.Making a few right choices(by our own stupid standards btw)avoiding a few mud-slinging situations,moving on the past(khee khee khee,you are still trying aren't you?!?!?) sorry to say......er.........is not IT!yer just in process man, no ones all mature,theres always room for immaturity and wild thoughts,so telling it to yourself everyday or telling other, just to make yourself believe the obvious lie....WON'T HELP!!I don't know when we're THERE,i don't even know if we ever will get THERE.I think its all about the the hard- to- achieve worldly standards we set not for ourselves but for others and how we get influenced to fulfill the ones set by others.Me?!?!Oh well i don't think I'm there,I don't get too many glares for my silly ways so i guess i am fine to be around,but really i am not mature,NOT enough cause i still plan how mean i need to be and with whom,for how many hours will my cell be off,how do i ignore certain people or did i win the last fight i had,if not how could i win the next one...........ahhahhahah,sigh i do I DO I DO!!!!!!I'm not ashamed of myself,but its a disappointment when people make completely "immature" assumption about their own "maturity"....its sad, plain sad.So lets stop keeping a check and let time and situations decide HOW MUCH we have grown up,cause frankly speaking i really haven't met a grown up till date!!!!!<br /><br />P.S-YOU MONKEYS!!!!!!!I hate everyone.....count yourself in.........just leave your name and well a comment to go with it!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-58014914560001329282008-09-20T21:45:00.002+05:302008-09-20T22:43:14.169+05:30Should, i know what i wanna?<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">hmmmmmmm</span>,no this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">isn't</span> one of those night time thoughts which creep up cause you have all the time in the world to fan those stupid thoughts!!!But this is one of those thoughts which pass my mind from time to time,like <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">SSSSSSSSSSWWWWWWWWISH</span>............yeah and the second time they enter my brain shack its slower,cause i start taking them seriously.OK,Question:Should you know MORE then you are suppose to?I mean could it be any good or is it only a way to mess up your already messed up thoughts?I mean there is always a line right between <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">curiosity</span> and well DANGEROUS curiosity.Dangerous well cause on the other side of it,which is the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">fulfillment</span> of it er......things get pretty ugly......FOR YOU!Yeah i almost pointed a finger there,<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">hahhahahha</span>!Anyway,yeah so we were talking about curiosity,ah i have oodles of it and i hide it.......hahahha..its almost like me having my"coming out" moments right now <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">HAHAHHAHHAHHAHAH</span>,only that m straight.......yeah well!<br /> I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">don't</span> know you know,sometimes i feel i have a right when i just need to know,but well then i get all.......ah man i cant deal with my own life why should i go about snooping into someones shitty underpants,<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">hehehheheh</span>.................ah THE FILTH!!!sigh,seriously when do you know yer <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">trespassing</span> on someones personal space?I mean <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">I've</span> never had any issues but i just wonder,IF.............IF(I said "IF")I let go........how ugly could it be?AND its not something i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">associate</span> with one person,<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">I'm</span> talking about everyone i know of........i mean when you come down to "I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">fucking</span> wanna know" its not too nice,the sound of it..............right?you know i always felt if someone wants you to know something they will come and tell you all by themselves,but well WHAT DID I KNOW,they're all a bunch of attention seekers,AND I COUNT MYSELF IN TOO!!!You always need a bit of "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">temme</span> please,come on,its me,you could tell me!"<br />DAMN!!!You know when do i feel guilty,i feel guilty when i know a bit more than what the person thinks i know........i feel i spoil it <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">for</span> myself,I lose from both sides,HOW?I'll tell you,see if the person tells me.....i feel sad cause well i know it already or well cause its a sad thing to know like a confession.........i feel sad cause i already saw it coming and i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">COULDN'T</span> do anything,helpless!and well the other side..........if the person <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">doesn't</span> tell me <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">I'm</span> sad again,cause i was deprived of it.......OH THAT HURTS!<br /> Sometimes i feel i have too many secrets,and sorting them out becomes an issue.It not fun you know too have too many of them cause then you've to play safe,not let out...........its like you're in soundproof room and you cant really do anything.......you gotta break down those walls,to let out,TO GET OUT!And my biggest secret is well,that I AM CURIOUS.........i wanna know,i wanna know why things happen and why they <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">don't</span>............but well keeping that relatively cool, composed "i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">don't</span> really wanna know" gimmick <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">doesn't</span> really let me,SAD!!!!Gimmicks,oh come on all o you play them everyday........so well <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">don't</span> sympathize with me,<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">no ones</span> any good.And you know what its a two way road,if one <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">doesn't</span> be so stuck up the other wont reciprocate the same way,so we're all at fault somewhere............and well i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">don't</span> even feel better blaming it on the others,I know i do it somewhere too!I think we spoil it for ourselves and then we go about looking for someone else to clean the mess.......AH WHAT LOSERS!WHAT <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">BABYS</span>!And well this bears testimony.........I can see it coming..........I SO can.........sigh.......and i cant do anything about it.........MAN I WANT A CHANGE O PLANS!!!!!!!<br /><br />ps-Plans.........eh........like i have any major ones.........no i do i think...........and all i can think of is a dialogue-"One woman,one <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">zipka</span> one life".........<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">hahahhahhahhaha</span>,AND checkout this flick "little black diaries",I felt DISCOVERED, man!!!Curbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-40167068121033139512008-09-11T21:26:00.005+05:302008-09-11T22:40:22.512+05:30Its all good,FOLKS!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOBN4omiIqwgB-pBE1nyvjUXIT15A8iTifWNLN4AyHN-xzIVSMiu57IRuIMsRvmYA8ewSsIk60MNzNH6ihV1ZBk2pbtdAuhE7wgYVRP_Kmv_zrIhtt1c0bmp3Uloj83AzAYi9RKX_M_zU/s1600-h/dsc01008editmf9.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOBN4omiIqwgB-pBE1nyvjUXIT15A8iTifWNLN4AyHN-xzIVSMiu57IRuIMsRvmYA8ewSsIk60MNzNH6ihV1ZBk2pbtdAuhE7wgYVRP_Kmv_zrIhtt1c0bmp3Uloj83AzAYi9RKX_M_zU/s320/dsc01008editmf9.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244807979035900066" border="0" /></a><br />Sigh,being practical is it easy for you people?like doing things acceptable by the worldly standards?i mean don't you give into temptation of doing something you like and ONLY like,something which makes you feel like jumping into it without even giving it a thought or second thought??!?!I mean i can't say "I've been doing some thinking" cause i do it alot these days............er.......and always!!!I mean don't know myself all that well and it seems like i always need someone to help me know ME!You get it?I don't know if i do,cause its like waking up every morning with a plan,and deciding to follow it with all your heart,feeling you know yourself.And then someone comes and makes you feel so good, even without having a plan you can be all good in control of yourself and your life!And we think its all us,we,me,I..........just to realize later that it never was you.........it was him......AND only him.Someone else who made you feel you could stand up on your two feet,breathe free,love the wrongs you did and that theres always a way to make it turn around.<br /> I've never been too practical,seriously....NEVER,and its all good.....it all works out for me.I get wise with time and i get wise when i have someone with me,anyone......i always do.Someone always comes my way and makes it worth living,makes me feel its all good and that the ones who live the practical way are missing out on something,HA!Isn't being practical the safer way to live?Don't do this its so stupid wont be any good!Don't do that its too unconventional and too lame wont happen!I mean isn't that being a wimp,just doing something which works,isn't that like serving your scared ego,which is scared to fall...........cause your just too bloody good to lose?!?I've ruined many a things being what I'm not,being practical and OH SO PRAGMATIC!!!<br />i cant manage all that,that's not me,cause then probably my whole life would be a fantasy!!<br /> Probably then i wouldn't have fallen in love,cause seriously that's the BIGGEST mistake you would love to do!!Hey loving yourself takes a backseat once in a while AND that's not a rosy picture my friend!!I mean i wont say i was practical...........but i guess i always was scared you know,to commit.Not commitment phobic,sheesh that's like some Sexually transmitted disease people are proud of!I mean i was good having fun.........single life isn't the best thing if you always wanted someone....but if you have no plans..........OH ITS ORGASMIC!!!!Trust me,messing around with some,the chase.........and then you do something stupid,you laugh about later,AH DAMN,kills me!!!!!But then if you have no plans,love might be the creepiest thing ever,really..........someone being all nice to you for no sexual,mental,financial,social gains.........er doesn't fit in,does it?its like something which grows on to you like a bad-nice-looking fungi,and they say things which grow on to you,are the best things hehehh!!Its not like i was a cold heartless bitch(er....bt i do play that gimmick)and love changed me,OH NO NO,you're taking this thing too seriously,ahhahhahah.I always took love seriously,seriously enough that i thought i would never fall in it till i'm 25 or 24,cause 17/18 doesn't really seem that sorta age to do SERIOUS stuff,hahahhahah...........DAMN ,WHAT A KID!!!!WE are really shallow at this age,very straight about what we want,very stubborn about things,nothing will change our mind,NOTHING AT ALL.And why should it,we've got all we want "a life,people thinking I'm cool,good clothes,I've slept with a hot chick,I know what snow blowing is,OH MAN I'M GOD!!".Shit you call that grown up,ha,!No wonders we're still called juvenile by people,we're not really adults even when we're 18,the constitution was written when a whole different race of men lived,so don't take it too seriously!!!sigh,i love being 18 i liked 17 better though,but its good.........I'm just gearing up i guess for the big stuff ahead, right?I dream alot,and they always come true...weird ain't it?!?!doesn't fit into your practical set up.........hahahah.......cause for you life's always "a cold hard,struggle up hill!!",hahahhahhahhahhahhahhahha.Get a grip,its your life and Hitlers dead........lets just live it......and love it........and make it good,SHALL WE?<br /><br />P.S.-I love you.............and I'm not talking to Dave Matthews here.........:PCurbside Prophethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08065438024186739368noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5548587606091280246.post-40735964844110422232008-08-24T10:01:00.005+05:302008-08-24T11:21:34.839+05:30Whats new???HELL LOT!!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiS_BLWOoMTPZNdTLkcop69W9wo9Fm2xM1ljQhe8dfFjjIYmhVPjR1nBPOc8LwL6yHvG6f0tS2Y-kCKA2YvLg5H16vReaFZcEYjsRVd7poHSQYdzEP8TAntwF5wiBIW3MDrfe8Zn16LI4/s1600-h/hello_by_sadrra.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiS_BLWOoMTPZNdTLkcop69W9wo9Fm2xM1ljQhe8dfFjjIYmhVPjR1nBPOc8LwL6yHvG6f0tS2Y-kCKA2YvLg5H16vReaFZcEYjsRVd7poHSQYdzEP8TAntwF5wiBIW3MDrfe8Zn16LI4/s320/hello_by_sadrra.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5237955505431789938" border="0" /></a><br />Hello!!!I'm back.......ah feels good to be typing that fast like you know,like some finger warm up,losing those unwanted finger calories then looking up and reading what i just wrote.....I'M BLOGGING!!!AGAIN!!!ah its been a WHOLE MONTH,EVEN MORE.<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Sheesh</span>!!what was i thinking,that i can SO do without this blog!!!!HOW VERY STUPIDLY ARROGANT OF ME!!!I cant to without this thing........ALL APOLOGIZES!!but hey i bet <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">alot</span> has changed in yer lives,even you.Me,i don't know how much I've changed,i still love the color green,I'm still sarky,I still sleep late.......and think of the same things.BUT,<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">alots</span> been going on and when i say that i mean it........i have amazing rapports with people i didn't even think i would ever wanna know,no not in the bad sense,as in when you're going on you think you don't need anyone,what good can he/she be.But then you realize,DAMN!!!This is so cool!!!where were they all this while?<br /> Honestly,on the emotional front it seems I'm always surprised,like how could i react this way?I mean its a new day for me,and i realize i don't know myself all that well.I really don't!!!And its not the best feeling sometimes,cause you're lost and confused and you think and Re-think and have thoughts then of course second thoughts........<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">AAAAAAAAAAA</span>,what a mess!!!!<br />You know that feeling when you get something you always wanted ?i don't know, i really reacted in the complete opposite way,of what i thought.I just didn't know what to do with it,NOW THAT I HAVE IT.AND then comes in the part played by those "sweet things".........they're there to sort it out for me.I don't really know why people like me ,no seriously i don't mean to sound modest or anything.But i wonder,its not really an easy thing to like someone,not for me,but then i don't really hate anyone either.I really wonder why?And i get various answers,nice to the ear, pleasing to the eye............I CANT HEAR ON <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">GTALK</span> NOW CAN I!!!anyway,I've come a long way,and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">alot</span> o people will agree with me,I've seen bad luck,heartache,boredom,cat aids................<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">AHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAH</span> ,STELLAR!!!but seriously,that's what life is a circle 360 degrees,comes back as ugly or pretty you left it.........pretty in my case,<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">neh</span> i guess its too soon to say how pretty or ugly, but I'm hanging on.I'm still JUST a girl,i mite be oxygen to some the god of this blog but i cant do much,sigh!I wonder <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">alot</span>,and i feel stupid ,cause its not like the others do the same right?EGO HASSLES!!!oh god i cant seem to get over them,quite like the guy i couldn't get over.BUT i have to learn,I SO HAVE TO.You know it doesn't really feel nice when you know something horrible is gonna happen and you still cant do anything about it,the hopeless situation.<br /> HOW TO SPOIL A RELATIONSHIP!!I have to learn that,cause it seems i could be the master of it,sigh.I mean I'm ready to be practical,but I'm NOT naturally pragmatic.I'm a little confused you know,cause i usually end up thinking about where do i stand,in life ,in a relationship............ANY RELATIONSHIP.Sometimes when you want someone to be there,they aren't,..........but someone else is,so what should i do,who should i value more........sigh quite a pickle to be in!!I've hated comparisons,i still do i always will!and i hate to say this but they make me feel down real down.Love,another thing which drives me crazy..........and the only thing which makes me go all "I DON'T KNOW,LEAVE ME ALONE!!!"I totally hate people who go all"i don't know!"that's like such a bummer man.....WHO ELSE WOULD???I'm a little scared,liking someone THAT much,its quite a risk,cause you either you fall terribly in love with yourself or you forget to love yourself!!And I've never really loved anyone all that much....besides myself.......NEVER.No, mum dad friends Paul Walker Dave Matthews.........there different cases.But this is different.You know its like this investment,LOVE IS,trust me,you put in your time,money,feelings ,emotions(THIS IS THE BIGGEST RISK,PHEW!!!) so its got to be good,durable, long,how long,i don't know I'm not an expert.But yeah its quite an investment,so you gotta be sure,OK i sound stupid but you have to ,i mean trust me I'm not really the nicest person to be around,OK YOU ALL TRUST ME THEN!I'm still new in the land of unconditional,selfless love....AND ALL THAT <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">MUMBO</span> JUMBO!!but I've never shied away from anything that's come my way,so I'm not a wimp...................but i don't talk too much about it.......i mean i do but not too much,saving it for a rainy day!!!!!I'm <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">kinna</span> the one time thing person,i could be shallow but I'm not shallow as a person,i know it,cause i wont be thinking so much,typing all this...........and now i realise i always end up standing where I left ............I WONDER............I STILL DO.............<br /><br />psst-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">LeRoi</span> Moore,the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">dmb</span> saxophonist died on 19<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">th</span> afternoon........ah god.........its horrible man,RIP.<br /><br />psst-and whoever has been viewing my blog..........I LOVE YOU.........i mean this is called selfless love,so this post is to whoever they are,wish you a flavoured luck.........RAD!!!!<br /><br />psst-i've been listening to Romeo and Juliet,again........i dont know its like i never heard it this way.......and i love it...........and i'm confused cause i dont really know the exact meaning of it.AND yeah IAMX........saaaaaaaxy!!!Curbside 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