Oh god!ITS ME AGAIN!!!

OK what is common between
my life,Status quo,Baba Ram Dev.........BORING!!!what is common between my love life,Mesopotamia and the Great Auk............NON EXISTENT!!!yeah! I'm listening to "Denial Twist"........and i'm not feeling tooooo horrible or something,oh now it switched to "fell in love with a girl"........but that's not the point.Actually there no such point i wanna make........I HATE MONDAY MORNINGS!Or maybe i don't and I'm just cursing them for no apparent reason.Yesterday i had to crash at 10:00 but i stretched it to 12:30..........ah i hate sleeping early!I mean i don't think its "cool" to be all nocturnal and stuff its just that i don't like to sleep all that early,AND I DO NOT KNOW WHY!Spoke to three people on Gtalk yesterday,all different stories,someones happy someones gloomy,in a desperate need for comfort........comfort............where do we find this thing,i mean there is no specific place where you can find comfort.It could be in some song,cause that song reminds you of someone who well,was the reason for that uncanny comfort.Its just the start of the day and I'm all down,WHAT AYE START.........and my tea tasted like piss.........but then i haven't tasted human piss.........cow piss yes.........OK DON'T GET ALL CHARGED UP........it was all "refined"and just a drop.......and hey its not like i eat grass or "MOOOOOOOO"...........I'm still the same see i can type......But that's not the point,ah i wish i knew why i do certain things,WHATS THE POINT?!?!?!And no one seems to know whats the point,NO ONE!I don't long for anything or anyone,seriously ,i know some people think i do,but i don't.........cause no point longing for something you really wont get,"WISHFUL THINKING".........and its not always about a guy...............or the guy..........seriously.......i think I'm the sorts meant to be single,not in a pathetic way i mean I'm weird and when I'm by myself I'm just the weirdest thing you ever heard.And the whole committed thingy just makes me a lot more sane............seriously all those poems,THE DEPTH!!!!!i mean i know people who play these real life roles,no seriously like the jerk lad,who just has to be A jerk,COME WHAT MAY!!The broken hearted boyfriend,cheated...........then the guy who just can't hold onto anything,MOVE ON...........like its some sorta style statement,and yes the commitment phobic.........IT IS NOT SOMETHING TO BE PROUD OF!!!!Some times i just wish i knew the point of everything..........WHY DOES IT HAPPEN............there are still sooooo many questions in my mind.You know i know this guy,and seriously i never told him,he's like the perfect "committed" material,like he is meant to be committed,hehehhehhe...........ridiculous, but i always thought that way.I know of people who just wanna be committed but aren't.......i feel sad cause i know they need someone,not in a helpless sorta way.........cause they are going to be perfect with someone.Then there are people who should'nt have been committed........."fickle pickles".........just for the heck of it you get a new girl.......sheesh.And i can never understand the concept of "hooking up".One of yer pals or just some person you know gets you "hooked up" to some seemingly suitable person,who can satisfy your requirement.........DAMN THAT SOUNDS LIKE A PIMP!!!!!!!!seriosly..........i dont believe in dating..........i mean as a sport great........but the bigger picture....not too clear.And now i'm playing"To be alone with you".........Yesterday i was thinking of alot o people.........i mean just generally.........like these prank calls i made to this guy i had a crush on ...........hehehehhe.Or a poem i wrote for someone.I was going through some old chats.........and i felt like a total third person,evaluating,re-thinking............felt sad.........REALLY sad........cause its all in the past.......and it wont comeback.Then i thought of fun stuff too......online tiff with this kinky freak on this indie rock community.......which reminds me of the lame kinna stuff i wrote on my community.........the guitar bloke was fun.......lame lame lame but damn its fun!!
LEFT ORKUT,no regrets,but it was kinna messy fun............orkut is always a mess..........but fun again.Anyway,i think i do think a lot,but i cant help it really.........its like i just have to think........i really don't know what i want right now,maybe a good chat with someone............and i don't even know who.I was talking to this guy yesterday,amazing chap.........no bull crap kinna guy,yesterday was like a bad bad bad day for him the latter bit.And he told me,like ventilated it all............and i don't even know him all that well...........he said it felt better,so even i was happy for him,but i realised sometimes you just don't know where comfort lies,in what..........sometimes you find it in the most unexpected places.YEAH MAYBE NOW I KNOW THE POINT!!!!maybe i need comfort,but where it lies no idea,BLOGGING,yeah its my distraction...........like rehab, rehab from a distraction in the human form.AH PERFECT TIMING"Eve, the apple of my eye"..........and i feel even worse...........JEEZ i thought i was over that phase........i am........no no i am,just Monday blues i guess.I don't wanna go "boyfriend" hunting,it sounds like sex tourism..........hehehhe...........and that's a fake laugh.....Its true the only thing we all share is the same sky...........and it ends there...........maybe someone is looking up right now,for some odd reason...........i can't even do that..........I'M IN MY ROOM.......du-uh..........shit i feel really down.........ah......fuck..........i'm not supposed to.......I'm like the quintessential weirdo,crazy ,with a even weirder sense of humour.People like me are just too pricey to confess,they feel down once in a while and that they wish they could do something.........holy fuck........its like a gimmick.....we all play them everyday....don't you guys realize............all o you have given yourselves a role to play that's why you're scared to do certain stuff.Nice bois cant break a girls heart,FUCKING REPUTATION,but they eventually do.............its just sad.....and i feel down.......i really don't know what i want,or maybe i do but I'm too scared to realise it all!Thats the thing you people go through too.........we all are here to get comfort,that's our purpose,THATS THE POINT OF IT ALL,think about it.We blog,why?COMFORT..........its about COMFORT...........and we are always looking around........restlessly for it.........you're still looking...you always will.

PSST-TRIVIA-Friends are pimps............YOU PIMPS!