Its a stupid Game

Curbside Prophet's note-Well,sometimes you don't write about what you're feeling at the moment,instead something completely opposite cause then probably you know how its all seems from a distance.I'm not in love not even close.....not even a crush.........NOTHING,ZILCH........BUT i still write a song(i guess)about someone in love.........sigh..........its was fun writing it during my English lesson,when the worst female ever born on planet earth was sucking life outta fellow classmates,I found something human enough to write about,SO IT SAVED A LIFE.

When you want something so bad,
More than anything you ever had,
Its the blush on my face which gives it away,
When you know everything I don't wanna say,
I'm the biggest fool i could ever be,
I love you so hopelessly can't you see?
Sometimes I'm scared what if you really know,
That i love you,I love you so.

CHORUS
But till then its gonna be the same,
You're gonna be a loon and I'll be lame,
Its blow by blow in this stupid game,
Someone lost every time it came,
I lost already,I've put myself to shame,
But its you,you're to be blamed.

Its creepy how you read my mind,
The reason and the feeling behind,
I hate you,I hate you for this,
But you cheer me up and I'm in this weird state of bliss,
You make me giggle,don't make me cry,
Don't envy the other guys its all a lie,

But till then its gonna be the same,
You're gonna be a loon and I'll be lame,
Its blow by blow in this stupid game,
Someone lost every time it came,
I lost already,I've put myself to shame,
But its you,you're to be blamed.

I don't know if I have you,
But i don't wanna lose you,
You kill me but i don't wanna shoot you,
You're right here,but i wanna be close to you,
Its more like a dream,but it seems true to you,
I'll never say it but yeah i wanna be in love with you.

But till then its gonna be the same,
You're gonna be a loon and I'll be lame,
Its blow by blow in this stupid game,
Someone lost every time it came,
I lost already,I've put myself to shame,
But its you,you're to be blamed.

psst-HOW COULD I WRITE THIS,there is not even a bone of mush in me.........DAMN FUCKETY ME!

HA,and they said "thats life!"

Its late,sometimes its too late...............uuummm i don't really know what i intend to say.But then i never do cause if i did i wouldn't be lying to myself.sigh,last few days,tough yes........a new person came outta me and well felt outta place,in new shoes.............not a good fit....but you gotta wear them now don't you?A heavy heart,a passing thought,a sinking feeling,sleep but not a sound one,new faces but not all that endearing.This guy i know,a friend i consider him, yes,no prenups heheheheh,so well he was sad,kinna blue.........OK really sad..........I don't know but well i did forget my life long regret and felt his heart,I really thought he deserves better...........maybe a fair chance, a successful story.I never get to hear a "happy ending"............like that line goes "Happy endings, they still don't bore me ,But they, they have a way ,They have a way to make you pay".I'm not sad,just a little angry not cause life is "unfair"............well there is nothing like a fair life,some rich bastard came up with that term probably,whose candy was snatched by some less deserving git.YEAH,I think that way..........life is life,don't type cast it like you do it to every thing.I hate it,I love it...........but then i still live it.Its not a job but then we get paid.Its not sex but you gotta do it..........and i really don't know who in the bluest hell came up with "life is a bitch,and nobody dies a virgin".............damn........HE seriously needs a life,i mean it ,a normal one,whatever that means!I'm still trying to make my life,give it shape make it ah well "live-able".......I usually do miss somethings, i always do............and i can't fight it,I miss myself as of now.My biggest achievement and regret in the last few days.............I MOVED ON...........alot........thats not what i was like,but i am now,and its not really nice to know!"In the wee small hours of the morning"......Jamie Cullum............ah well i could weep a little.........i don't even know why but i could,I don't even know what i lost but i did............and what i won I'm still to discover.THAT'S LIFE,crumbling before ones eyes,rising in front of the others...........a wave probably..........but then hey don't typecast it...........its ah ummmmm i don't know LINGERIE..............hahahahhaha seriously you don't know what it is.........Its life,and it goes on,DAMN IT SOUNDS SOOOOO SAD............this guy I once knew said "AH well its been years since i thought about her,but its nice that you're here"...........and well he moved on.........good for him.........he knows he's got a life,WHO'S HE?!?!?AH well i wish i knew too..........yeah!

"I'm sorry Mary,but its over".........damn ,why do people sing such songs.........like its real cool huh,"ah yeah suck it up,but i don't really like you now............so see ya ah ummmmmmm NEVER!"............and stupid Mary.........she might be all..."damn he was nice".......sugar coated shit in a nice candy box.But then,its what it is.........NO I DON'T HATE ANYONE,damn even i have a life.............so I'll live it........selfish me I'll stuff it with love,why hate..........hate is like the other form of love............you just can't get enough of disliking that person.........sigh,but try not to do that too much,waste of time...........instead fall in love with yourself........no seriously,I HAVE TO..........i keep falling for others and well it ain't that swell.NOW some would go like,damn shes heart broken real bad...........uuummm OK,a little but i can't always think about it in public hehehhe,yes i do think of it.........not that much yeah but when it rains i do..........its a good excuse,no one bothers you,heheheh................TIME TO BE EMO...........or for others to get "horny"............neh its just a good time to think about life and its ways.I always get "that's life,it goes on"..............i mean in different ways but i do..........I also realised we're all fibbers,all of us,to live life we lie............ah i don't really trust anyone now,NO NO NO,I'm not cynical,just that no one takes you along,and why should they............WE ALL HAVE A LIFE,fair enough..........so i have to get one for myself,my kinna life..........SATISFACTION...........i never seem to find it and i realised i miss everything which gave me satisfaction that its life and its good or at least it will be,like my friend in Delhi or this chap i knew ah nice guy, but nice guys no easy business or this other chap the friend i spoke of........ah didn't really speak to him today,anyway........and well I'll miss a whole lot o people when they're gone..........i don't want to so i pray they don't go...........I'm still an amateur in the class of "MOVING ON"...........I can't even forget a stupid song which reminds me of somebody,its hard.........when its everywhere.HAHAHA"did you get my message" is playing............nice song...........did you all get mine?i hope you did,cause its better to see others rot in hell and know what its like,hehehehhe,yeah cause we're all a part of the mob,which gapes at someone in pain or gets excited to see someone happy.............ALL OF US...........so look at me I'm just living my life,that's my plan for the rest of my life...........cause every time i said "I hate living it!" they said "That's life!"

P.S.-"Amen,Omen"..........Ben Harper..........sorry to everyone,I was just avoiding my blog.And then i decided lets be true to one thing at least,or lets trust something besides meself.........stop pretending all of you,its not a great sport.........and i know you all do........i do hate you for it.........and somewhere myself too,goodnight.......if its good enough!

P.P.S.-I miss it,sigh.........i still do........and i don't lie now!

P.P.S.-And those trying to end it..........don't rush things that'll happen too,HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH,sorry........

NEW PLAYLISTS :D

AH well long time............i feel a little outta place in my own world.........its the worst thing ever.........some said "you haven't blogged in a while!".......yeah sorry folks........just a little fuckety time.........but I'll be back.....for now just look at the various changes in here..........OK 4 PLAYLISTS......... thought of catering all yer musical desires(hhhhmmm it sounds a bit weird)anyway.....the 1st as in the red one in all INDIE,the 2nd one,blue one is all JAZZ,3rd one,grey is all adult contemprary and lastly the black one is all rock...........so there it is.........choose........suit yourself.............and as far as I'm concerned.......I'LL BE BACK SOON FORM THE MOON...........yeah just wait!TO THE GOOD MUSIC WE MAKE!

P.S.-do take a look at the poll and well vote........and there is a B'day reminder.........DO WISH ME!

Come wander with me

ah.........the night,dark,silent..........like its all dead, never really had a life.Its mystical,and slow.......some how i do have a sinking feeling,like somethings not right,like it could be better,different.....I'm listening to this song "COME WANDER WITH ME" by Jeff Alexander a less known masterpiece......just a guitar to go with it,somehow the lack of music makes it all the more gloomy...........it kinna makes you want to listen to it again,you feel an uncanny sadness,but its not the kinds you would avoid.......whats weird is,that it makes it sound so beautiful.........its taken from this TV show called "The Twilight Zone" sung by actress Bonny Beecher.I came across it when i was searching for this indie flick "The Brown Bunny".It talks about this girl,wrapped in the worldly sorrow.She doesn't know him,but he tells her to come wander with him,away from this sad world.He shows her dreams,sweet dreams of love and freedom.It almost seems that he came from her sorrows,just for her.........to take her to his world,to the other world,full of love.........just the two them........she wanted to go,go wander with him,be with him,but she had sworn to someone else and couldn't be free.Trapped by her own actions,she couldn't break free,did what she SHOULD have done......and not what she WANTED........
He said come wander with me love
Come wander with me
Away from this sad world
Come wander with me

He came from the sunset
He came from the sea
He came from my sorrow
And can love only me

Oh where is the wanderer
Who wandered this way
He's passed on his wandering
And will never go away

Come wander with me love
Come wander with me
Away from this sad world
Come wander with me

He sang of a sweet love
Of dreams that would be
But I was sworn to another
And could never be free

Below is the video.......sorry i couldn't really put the song on my play list,but do give this a listen.....you sure would love it.

THE BEST SPOOFS EVER(videos)

HEHEHHEHEHEHHEH........ok this might be an amazing book and flick.....but this spoof will just take it to a whole new level.




UUUUMMMMM........i saw this one on some chaps profile on orkut........but nonetheless this is darn good........damn i love e(l)mo!!



HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.........i could'nt possibly leave idol...........here it is....PISS ON YOURSELVES!!!!





here is the queer,baby dangling freak A.K.A.Michael Jackson.......THIS IS DARN GOOD!!!!

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SIGH.....********.........I CAN SEE STARS AROUND ME......OH GOD!!!!!!Did you see Paulo Nutini's advert...the puma one?!??!and the song..."new shoes" eets my fave......of god he's so darn good.....and yes its official i have a crush on Imran Khan.........he's cute........he is my "pretty boi"...........oh Jesus.....I've seen the promo like 50 times,and i still cant get enough........i never thought i would do this......but yes I'm going to see his flick...1st DAY 1st SHOW!!!!YEAH I YAM.....AND hey see the heights of optimism.........it turns out my blood group is B+.....WOO HOO...........HEY THIS MEANS.........all of the inner circle has.........B+.......yeah!!!i can "yeah" on anything right now.......cause the next few days are gonna be tough....but then this whole month has been kinna tough........sigh.........and I had my "down" moments today too.......suddenly like you hit rock bottom.....TTTTTTTTTTRRRDDDDDSSSSSHHHHH...............it always happens with me........and then mum gets all........."what in the hell happened to you?!?!?!" sorts.........she thinks I'm hiding some BIG SECRET..........well i could be I'm a pro at that.....but well its not like I'll tell her"mom,I'm one of the spy kids!"..........but yeah actually i can hide stuff pretty easily and you have no idea........i mean you wont even get to know....i yam so bloody good at that.......and some of my pals bear testimony to that....SO if i don't wanna tell you ,you'll never know........EVER..........I RULE.........I DROOL..........eeeewwww not that............I'm starved...oh hey this reminds me do checkout "MTV storytellers with Dave Matthews".........he's darn witty and yeah an amazing musician...........nitey night.........I'll take off do something constructive like gape at Imran Khan..........yeah that's constructive..........JAH BLESS................and take good care of your selves. :))))))

fook piss poop!!!!

I GOT UP AT 5:30 A.M........I couldn't sleep the whole night.......i did all this for my result......but looks like the ones responsible slept a bit too much.........over slept........FOR A WHOLE WEEK!!!!!CLAT results are delayed not by an hour or a day......but they still haven't decided when they will put it on the net......geez........uurghh!!!!damn its like a month of mourning and it just wont stop.....it all started on may 2nd..and since then nothing all that great has happened(besides this blog)sigh..........i hate to live in this constant terror.........i rather die and get nirvana..heheheh hopefully!!!!so all of you people who are in the same position.........it will be declared anytime between 19th-21st......so go back to your dens..and prepare for NLSD...........happy sucking up!

CURBSIDE PROPHET!

OK YA' ALL.......so here's my anthem...the first song on my play list............yeah the curbside prophet..........go on check it out..........YEAH I GOT A SONG...........HEHEHEHHE.................DO YOU HAVE A SONG THAT GOES WITH YOUR BLOG?!?!?!NO........but yeah i do.......and here it is................WOO HOO!!!!!!Its by Jason Mraz.And so that you guys can sing along....have you little karaoke moment.......here are the lyrics.........yeah!!!!!

I’m just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and I’m waiting for my rocket to come
I’m just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and I’m waiting for my rocket y'all

You see it started way back in NYC
When I stole my first rhyme from the M-I-C
At a west end avenue at 63
It's the beginning of a leap year February ‘96
win a guitar picked it up in the mix
I committed to the licks a like a nickel bag of tricks
Well Look at me now
Look at me now
Look at me now, now, now, now

I’m just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and I’m waiting for my rocket to come
I’m just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and I’m waiting for my rocket y'all

Well then you’re never gonna guess
where I been been been
And I have no regrets that I bet my whole checking account
Because it all amounts to nothing up in the end
Well you can only count that “On The Road Again”
Will soon be on my radio dial
And I been paying close attention to the Willie Nelson style
Like a band of gypsies on the highway wild
I’m a one-man mission on the California skyline
Drive up the coast and I brag and I boast
because I’m picking up my pace, I'm makin' time like Space Ghost
Raising a toast to the highway patrol at the most
But my cruise control’s on coast
Cause I’m tourin’ around the nation on extended vacation
See I got Elsa the dog who exceeds my limitations
I say, “I like your style crazy pound pup!
You need a ride? well come on girl hop in the truck"

With the curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and I’m waiting for my rocket to come
I’m just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and I’m waiting for my rocket y'all
i'm just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and i'm waiting for my rocket to come on
i'm just a curbside prophet
with my hand in my pocket
and i'm waiting for my rocket y'all

See I’m a down-home brother red-neck undercover
With my guitar here I’m ready to play
And I’m a sucker for philly got a natural ability
geared to freestyle look at my flexibility
Dangerous on the MIC
My ghetto hat's cocked right
All the ladies say,
“Yo, that kid is CRAZY!”
We got the backstage Betties takin’ more than they can get
They say, “whats up with M-R-A-Z?"

Hey hey hey! Somethin’s different in my world today
Well they changed my traffic signs to a brighter yellow(repeat)

I'm just a Curbside Prophet love, (Repeat 5x)
And I'm waitin'for my rocket I said a waitin' for my rocket to come now *Fading out* curbside..come now brother.....

The "Chip" in my life!

Sunny,but not little miss sunshine,pricey but not a bitch,crazy but sane,hot but that's just cause of the summers.........hehehheh........Disha,the golden girl,OH YEAH SHE IS......How can i ever do without her,she's always been there and specially in every "guy" thing-nanny,twiddly......heheh and its been swell,the best.She's my partner in everything,and i love hanging around with her,its like FIRE FIRE FIRE.........yeah she's the fire of my life........others got extinguished.....but she,she's on, heating it up huh,hehehehheh.seriously dish,I'm gonna miss you when you're gone,and right now i have a heavy heart,its been a while since that happened,its amazing how you were always there for me,seriously you always made it,online,remember,"COPY-PASTE"......scrolls and scrolls..........EPICS!!!!and you telling me "will you stop being a bitch and sort it out!!!"...................or if i had a stupid plan to get back at someone you would go like "OH GOD!!I hope he/she knows what they're into!!!".That "major" fight we had,when i was soooooooo cold......damn i missed you dish,your like this pal i really can't do without,Even when you're in Chicago making out with some lame ass..........I WILL CALL YOU.......and tell you my stories,and my stupid plans of "hurting" someone...........hehehheheh...........and hey you're "firang" but damn i love you for being all that.I still remember, well it all started with.................a chair?!?!HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA........no no.........with a jerk........its all cause of sandman that we got to be friends in the real sense.........and hey your chicken sandwitches........mmmmmmm.JEEZ,for bearing my stupid kiddish ways,my weird mood swings,my HUMOUR............hehehhe.........i'm gross but hey i'm the wittiest chick you could come across!!!THE INNER CIRCLE.............oh god.........its like a sense of security i feel when i hear this name,and it sounds sooooooo cool..........like the Rat-Pack...........and all the codes we had-sandman,Antony,nanny.........damn, no i mean........DAIYAM!And those page long msgs........I'm so glad you were online when i was.........for clearing my messy thoughts........making me believe in something,ah so what if its gone.........everythings got an expiry date...........BUT THEN SOME DON'T............and of course "me and you".........forever..........imagine,anchita sharma 20 years from now..........my kids are gonna come to you for "snob"classes,yeah, to shreya for"managerial" classes,to himani for "creativity" classes to sneha for"shastrya sangeet" classes,"limericks"classes AND "how to lose stuff" classes,mridul for "daychuckness" and"janglee-ness" classes.............HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHHAAH........dish,i mean i feel so satisfied even when i talk on Gmail with you.....i mean GMAIL............FOR HEAVEN SAKE!!!!!!BUT THEN,I've got some experience there.............all the music sharing, you're the only one i do that with,besides sneha........rest are my pupils..........hehheheheh....dish you gotta agree.......you cant do without me,i mean who ever knows me, can't........i'm like oxygen,you cant do without me.And even in "amreeka" no one's gonna be as good as me......those white shits can never be me.........YOU KNOW IT,I KNOW IT..........AND NOW EVERYONE KNOWS IT...........dish,i love you...i never thought i would ever say that to A CHICK,but desperation......hehehhe..cant fight it........neh,ME AMORE..........just be there,you're the lightest looking strongest anchor of my life.Just be there,in some way,i might not be verbal and i might pretend,but this bears testimony........I'll always need you to be there,for everything..........and one last thanks,for making me write that mail,i could've never done it if it wasn't for you guys.
and now i shall twist the lines of a song for disha...............the songs by timbuk 3........so here it goes.........."disha is so bright,i have got to wear sunglasses"..........hehehehhehe.........love ya chippy..........I'm always gonna be anchi for you.........the same weird,witty,oxygen-like-important girl.........YOU NEED ME,you can never do without me..........JAH BLESS!!!!!!!

PSST-the 2nd song on my play list is for you....just replace future with.......DISH!!!!!

Just dropped in to say hi.....and a little more

Its 10:28,I've to take a shower,Me pals are coming home......YEAH YEAH YEAHS!!!!!Chippy is going to "vilayat"...........Chicago hence this meeting...........of the inner circle........and I've seen Imran Khan's movie's promo 55 times........I'm still seeing it...........*sighs*...HE IS SO CUTE.DAMN......I've told this chap who lives in Mumbai to kidnap Imran,and post him..........hehehheheh........Which reminds me,one of my online pals,will not be here as in online for a while......I'm a little sad cause he read all my blog posts like a good boy and well gtalk was fun with him............sigh.......but then he needed this break...........Jah bless........anyway have a nice day.........RESULTS TOMORROW!!!!!HOLY FFFFFFFFFATHER............and please do go through the following pieces..........if you haven't or are new on this blog-
Presence of the Past
The Pink Sun(don't be too harsh on this one,if you don't like it, SPECIAL REQUEST!)
Love,Janie
More than Words
He said,she said
HELLO!We are shallow!
Randaom(but not lame)
Love-not a bed time story
Oh god!!its me again
I'm a dreamer
Blue Haze

thank you.............and go pamper yourself............with something good...........and not kinky!

Random.....i just need one read and a smile :)

uummmmmmmm,hows the day,the sun is out,i had no fights..........got awesome comments,READ A PIECE ON ME!!!!yes,I'm an inspiration,hehehehhe.......no no but seriously i did,nice little thing,very true,very bang on correct.........so it felt good.Its different when you write for someone,I mean then its more like "i wish he/she likes it,i hope its good enough".....and when you get the green flag you're happy........OK understatement,"you feel like doing cartwheels".......hehehhe........seriously now I've written poems for 3 people,BUT the "Pink Sun" still has no match.........damn.........i better write something better,but then i need an inspiration......and its hard to find an inspiration,crowds look more like mobs,sweet people seem more like fake flatterers,trees are dead,the sun's pissed........the rains ....well they.......just remind me "Anchita,we'll wash down everything,all your attempts to look elsewhere,to get something new".....so its more like a war with the rains.........heheheh............and the moon.........pale-faced goon......damn if it was cheese i would've eaten it up.......end of it all.........but then i think too much.........and that's not gonna happen.........but I'm happy.........and in a way content,whatever i left behind was good,and well if it can't get its right place in my present, its better to end it there........PLAY FAIR.........PLAY BRAVE..........and that's what i did,so I'm HAPPY..........and now I'm smiling cause that's all i can do which won't harm anyone,no sarcasm,no stupid petty games,no cuss words..............just a smile...........i feel lucky.........somewhere all of you are,just look around,someone will make you feel that way..........yeah trust me.............cause if you were good it'll all come back to you...........it will...........my word..........so just hang on,and it'll happen.........and do look up once in a while........yeah it helps!

PSST-just smile,read something you wrote a while back for someone,or a old letter...........try to celebrate it and not cry over it,trust me once you do that,you'll be happy,complete,ready to take on what comes next!and hey listen to Tokyo-Athlete.....cause I'm listening to it.........:P

Blue Haze

Before you read this.....do take a look at the sky.......and the moon.And first read the post below this one,"I'm a dreamer".If you ask me how am i doing,I'll probably say.........I'm good now.............yeah i am but then what you'll not realise would be that if i am good NOW,i probably wasn't the same before.We mortals just overlook it all,a fake laugh ,a silent address, a cold distance,a warm but unmeaning full hug.........its not always what it seems.When we meet someone,we've got nothing too lose..........cause they don't own any part of you.........your secrets,your laughs, your touch....nothing.........you're safe.........but when they become a part of your life they get more than you think they have.......That's why i say strangers are safer than friends at times.Its a surprise if none of you thought that way.Can you picture one of your favourite "peeps" leaving you?!?!I cant,but it did happen........they go........sigh......to make place for the others.But then do you actually replace them?!?!Seriously,i really cant,its just so hard.........unfair.......would'nt that be like unfair to all that you once shared.......or were a part of.Take for example,yeah take this,straight from my life.........i tried to play these stupid tests with a lot of people.......blogthings.com........and well i never really got my partner back,who was it.......well someone who can't be replaced.HA,some said its sissy,some just couldn't get the "logic" behind it.........i tried, tried my best to be human enough to replace,forget,give up...........but i couldn't........i just couldn't!!
It rained,i feel hopeless,I hate rains and trains...........no i never really made an effort to make them rhyme.Rains make me all nostalgic and trains make me realize i can never be where someone is.........i just can't..........they both make me realise I'm such a puzzle...........an incomplete one............i feel hopeless that's why.You know that realization which crushes your subconscious pride is what you're truly scared of.Its like a weighing scale.............AAARGGHHH...........what could be worse than listening to "we are gonna be friends"........damn its gonna be a sad night.........Its all over....really?!?!I mean cant we bring it back,to life,fill it with life again?!?!?NO,things which die never come back and if they do they were never dead.........i believe in it.........you have to believe in something,I'm not a nihilist.......I'm a believer.........and i wish all of you realise its important to believe in something.Its OK if you've lost alot in life,atleast you know what you lost you can always work on it,the actual losers are those who don't even realise what they have..........WHAT LOSERS!!!!I don't know why I'm thinking so deep today............its happens........when I've had a whole day with myself.........alot of questioning and answering..........i give myself good company.........sometimes i do cheat myself but it gets better.I hate lying to me self,but i do it alot........and i get caught.........but then i never learn,shame isn't it?!?!?!
Someone asked me.........there is this common inspiration behind your work,yeah there is.........it still breathes,its a shame people i know so well don't inspire me as much as someone so unreachable can,funny,but yeah i owe it all to the inspiration.Its sad you guys never came across something like this..........i surprise myself everyday,when i realise how much a I learnt from this experience!!!!!I'm glad it did happen,"you don't let go of your feelings!".........I'm trying,for the first time,i am.........but its just sad i can't prove it to that one i should,beh,what the hell.........like it makes a difference........i should give up thinking I'm too unforgettable,but then today i got to know I'm "wacky and fun"........hehhheeh.............and I'm good to talk to.........and then this girl said............"i seriously wish i could be a bit of you!".......geez......what am i supposed to do with myself...........damn I LOVE ME..........but then i can't fall in love with myself........its a little uncomfortable,hehehhheh.............yeah i can be funny even when I'm like the saddest person on earth...........i can fake it pretty well..........TRY ME,seriously!

"I looked for you everywhere,i looked up....went deep.........i tried creating you too,but then i got tired.Then i tried giving up on you,i worked on it,but then you just wont go.I knew you're doing good,and i wondered why i wasn't.I sat and looked around,and then it all came crashing down.........you were everywhere..............in my brain too".Just a thought,its no use doing the impossible.......somethings just don't go.........and a thank you to someone.........cause i know it will never get that far........thankyou........and i would just end with a few lines from this song "I'll be seeing you-Billie Holiday"

" I'll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day through.

In that small cafe;
The park across the way;
The children's carousel;
The chestnut trees;
The wishin' well.

I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day;
In every thing that's light and gay.
I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you
In the morning sun
And when the night is new.
I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you."

PSST-The sky's really pretty tonight,what a shame its too far.........

I'm a Dreamer

Curbside Prophet's note been a while since i went all poetic.........I wrote this during the same old dull phase of my life,major contemplations,iffy situations and getting inspiration from the same source but its a wonder how it comes out so very different on paper......everytime.......this chap i write about is a mixture off a few special things and people i know.........but at the end of it all he's a dreamer and he isn't scared to say that.People are often scared to let their "dreamer" side get exposed..........they're too shy,he teaches us to take pride in dreams cause they start it all ,they end it all........

He'll be standing down the driveway,
Strumming his blue guitar
You'll see him below the oak tree,
You don't have to go too far,
If you hear closely,
You'll hear a familiar sound,

"I'm a dreamer,
I don't have to close my eyes to dream,
I stay up all night to soak the moonbeams,
I've got the prettiest roof,that's the starry sky,
I'm a dreamer ,
Cause i know dreams come true,they never die."

On Sundays i see him at the diners,
He sings to kick the summer blues,
He loves the winter breeze,
And the autumn hues,
Its the rains which make his songs deeper,
So he sings the same old song,
Cause he knows God is a natural weeper,

"I'm a dreamer,
I don't have to close my eyes to dream,
I stay up all night to soak the moonbeams,
I've got the prettiest roof,that's the starry sky,
I'm a dreamer ,
Cause i know dreams come true,they never die."

He says "Time is quite a traveller
It takes you to places you've never seen,
Or makes you someone you've never been,
When we dream we've got no time to see the time,
You've got yours, I've got mine,
So dream,dream on my friend
Cause dreams go beyond the human end"

He says,
"I'm a dreamer,
I don't have to close my eyes to dream,
I stay up all night to soak the moonbeams,
I've got the prettiest roof,that's the starry sky,
I'm a dreamer ,
Cause i know dreams come true,they never die."

PSST-I would've loved if it could be a song..........seriously..........and if it was then i would've loved if it was sung by Dave Matthews........with a nice job on the guitar and a dreamy,peaceful feel to it.....yeah!

This is it,i promise!

OK i know i changed my template again,but I'm in that phase of my life where i got over one and I'm deciding how to start the other one, with what,so this one's a little eerie,confusing loads of activity.......suits my condition as of now.I'll put the chick with those huge shades once its all good,AT PEACE and i can go to the Bahamas for a vacation,OK maybe not that but you all get the point,SO I LOVE THIS TEMPLATE..........BUT DO TELL ME what you guys think of it..........cause i love it,its just bang on apt you know,anyway,good morning............and have a nice day you,cause you guys totally deserve it........and listen to "I feel good-James Brown"............it just give you a kick in the right place.So I'll scoot now start my day,MY WAY,and my green teens............JAH BLESS!



PSST-I'm listening to "Them Clones"on myspace..........I'm pretty sure you guys know them,anyway this song by them called "the bomb song" is rad,yeah..............hey guys should give up some of that loser music you people waste your time on and listen to these Indian bands,they've got some really good tunes........I'll try to feature them in one of my posts,for the ignorant teens............anyway.........i'll bounce now.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................OK THIS IS A MOONSTRUCK BLOGGER.....................aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............................DAMN I'VE GOT A NEW CRUSH.........AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA........yes and I'm so bloody glad........ok he mite not all approachable but then even Paul and Jack aren't right?!?!OK he's that guy Aamir Khan's nephew,Imran Khan(CHECK THIS OUT,http://youtube.com/watch?v=By_PYtiHbP8),DAMN HE'S MY PRETTY BOI!!!!!YOU guys don't know this crush is like a life saver.........seriously like in fairy tales......the sky cleared and there was a light,bright....outlandish.........and it saved those poor lives.........OH YEAH IT DID............so its back to Frank Sinatra............and Armstrong...........and Fitzgerald!!!!OH no its back to some really hip, peppy, catchy, indie number.......YEAH...ZATS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!"I'M IN LOVE YEAH,I'M IN LOVE YEAH,AND ITS BURNING IN MY SOUL!!!!"OK................it might not be love.......but its a great song.............so people come out on the streets and SHAKE YOUR TAIL FEATHERS!!!!!!!!AND now suddenly I don't even hate George Bush........damn..........the power of shallow crushes.....LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE IS BACK!!!............YEAH...........ITS HOEDOWN!!!!!

PSST-hello people............THE SUN IS OUT.............PHEW!!!!!and somehow its all so sunny when you're MOONSTRUCK!!!!

Welcome to Downtown!!

DAY 2...........and I'm not all that happy,but then i have no reason to be cheery neway.Its not like the world is at peace or Paul walker is coming to town.......JEEZ!That would be LIKE HUGE!!!sigh......i had a great time with two of my pals yesterday.......but that was yesterday,today lets talk about TODAY.....filling forms,mom's pissed with me i think she liked me going to school better,too much of me well, could cause dementia........no question about it.......but then I've been with her for 18 years and nine months......then again......I'm blank.When I'm blank i type too much.....and i don't even know why or how........seriously....its frustrating,irritating and the BLUE feeling....damn i hate blue.......no but my template is blue.......EETS LOVELY!
freaking worried about the college I'm deadbeat but i have to go out for some work......i mean this is shit...just 4 hours of sleep.......on top that 10 hrs of continuous jibber jabber........i feel like singing "where are you going"by DMB.....and that line .."I'm no superman!"...........i wanna be back on orkut.........I'm over that phase i know it cause i tried myself yesterday.........and yes.........no feeling........i'm over you.........YEAH you..........stupid orkut.........hence I'll be back.......cause i love getting into shit.........and its my favourite shit place.........I've got dark circles..........less sleep i guess..........I'mthingy........and the usual........PONDERING,RE-PONDERING,RE-RE-PONDERING.....................and yes......there isn't too much love around,sigh.........its cold........very cold........and I'm catching it..........it feels bad,but then.......i guess summers are round the corner.........hopefully the sun will be out........and it'll all be good.Been a while since i weeped,so i did that,no no i don't wail and drive the neighbourhood crazy...just a little sob..........And i realised again,once again, we always end up doing what we're supposed to do,and not we want to.........no point blaming God,seriously i mean,I've just got bored of doing that.....and that's mean don't you think?!!?!?I do..............so i don't blame anyone anymore.........I JUST BLOG..........anyway have aye nice day and wish the same for me.........come on don't be such.......MMMMMMMMMMAGGOTS!

HELLO LADIES!!!!!

SO!!!Its another look....yeah its nice huh.....who needs a makeover if this blog bitch looks so swell,eh??????Sigh......so "senti-munni" played a big,OH NO NO.................MAJOR role.........to get me this blue......oh so blue.....template........nice color.....like i don't care ,I'm happy........cool....ah its for no one.......its for the sky above.....zats ees blue....and I LOVE IT.........to the sky......cause theres stuff beyond it........its not the limit......nep its just not!


PSST-hey sorry its not for the ladies........i mean i should've written "HELLO LADIES AND GENTS"......but no hassle guys can comment.......no man-gina or she-nis problem......ah sorry for the smutty lingo......I'm high on coke......like really sloshed........JASHN-E-BAHARA.........some wise guy said so.....may his troubled soul rest in peace........AMEN!

Quinn-tessential :P:P:P:P

Oh god!ITS ME AGAIN!!!

OK what is common between
my life,Status quo,Baba Ram Dev.........BORING!!!what is common between my love life,Mesopotamia and the Great Auk............NON EXISTENT!!!yeah! I'm listening to "Denial Twist"........and i'm not feeling tooooo horrible or something,oh now it switched to "fell in love with a girl"........but that's not the point.Actually there no such point i wanna make........I HATE MONDAY MORNINGS!Or maybe i don't and I'm just cursing them for no apparent reason.Yesterday i had to crash at 10:00 but i stretched it to 12:30..........ah i hate sleeping early!I mean i don't think its "cool" to be all nocturnal and stuff its just that i don't like to sleep all that early,AND I DO NOT KNOW WHY!Spoke to three people on Gtalk yesterday,all different stories,someones happy someones gloomy,in a desperate need for comfort........comfort............where do we find this thing,i mean there is no specific place where you can find comfort.It could be in some song,cause that song reminds you of someone who well,was the reason for that uncanny comfort.Its just the start of the day and I'm all down,WHAT AYE START.........and my tea tasted like piss.........but then i haven't tasted human piss.........cow piss yes.........OK DON'T GET ALL CHARGED UP........it was all "refined"and just a drop.......and hey its not like i eat grass or "MOOOOOOOO"...........I'm still the same see i can type......But that's not the point,ah i wish i knew why i do certain things,WHATS THE POINT?!?!?!And no one seems to know whats the point,NO ONE!I don't long for anything or anyone,seriously ,i know some people think i do,but i don't.........cause no point longing for something you really wont get,"WISHFUL THINKING".........and its not always about a guy...............or the guy..........seriously.......i think I'm the sorts meant to be single,not in a pathetic way i mean I'm weird and when I'm by myself I'm just the weirdest thing you ever heard.And the whole committed thingy just makes me a lot more sane............seriously all those poems,THE DEPTH!!!!!i mean i know people who play these real life roles,no seriously like the jerk lad,who just has to be A jerk,COME WHAT MAY!!The broken hearted boyfriend,cheated...........then the guy who just can't hold onto anything,MOVE ON...........like its some sorta style statement,and yes the commitment phobic.........IT IS NOT SOMETHING TO BE PROUD OF!!!!Some times i just wish i knew the point of everything..........WHY DOES IT HAPPEN............there are still sooooo many questions in my mind.You know i know this guy,and seriously i never told him,he's like the perfect "committed" material,like he is meant to be committed,hehehhehhe...........ridiculous, but i always thought that way.I know of people who just wanna be committed but aren't.......i feel sad cause i know they need someone,not in a helpless sorta way.........cause they are going to be perfect with someone.Then there are people who should'nt have been committed........."fickle pickles".........just for the heck of it you get a new girl.......sheesh.And i can never understand the concept of "hooking up".One of yer pals or just some person you know gets you "hooked up" to some seemingly suitable person,who can satisfy your requirement.........DAMN THAT SOUNDS LIKE A PIMP!!!!!!!!seriosly..........i dont believe in dating..........i mean as a sport great........but the bigger picture....not too clear.And now i'm playing"To be alone with you".........Yesterday i was thinking of alot o people.........i mean just generally.........like these prank calls i made to this guy i had a crush on ...........hehehehhe.Or a poem i wrote for someone.I was going through some old chats.........and i felt like a total third person,evaluating,re-thinking............felt sad.........REALLY sad........cause its all in the past.......and it wont comeback.Then i thought of fun stuff too......online tiff with this kinky freak on this indie rock community.......which reminds me of the lame kinna stuff i wrote on my community.........the guitar bloke was fun.......lame lame lame but damn its fun!!
LEFT ORKUT,no regrets,but it was kinna messy fun............orkut is always a mess..........but fun again.Anyway,i think i do think a lot,but i cant help it really.........its like i just have to think........i really don't know what i want right now,maybe a good chat with someone............and i don't even know who.I was talking to this guy yesterday,amazing chap.........no bull crap kinna guy,yesterday was like a bad bad bad day for him the latter bit.And he told me,like ventilated it all............and i don't even know him all that well...........he said it felt better,so even i was happy for him,but i realised sometimes you just don't know where comfort lies,in what..........sometimes you find it in the most unexpected places.YEAH MAYBE NOW I KNOW THE POINT!!!!maybe i need comfort,but where it lies no idea,BLOGGING,yeah its my distraction...........like rehab, rehab from a distraction in the human form.AH PERFECT TIMING"Eve, the apple of my eye"..........and i feel even worse...........JEEZ i thought i was over that phase........i am........no no i am,just Monday blues i guess.I don't wanna go "boyfriend" hunting,it sounds like sex tourism..........hehehhe...........and that's a fake laugh.....Its true the only thing we all share is the same sky...........and it ends there...........maybe someone is looking up right now,for some odd reason...........i can't even do that..........I'M IN MY ROOM.......du-uh..........shit i feel really down.........ah......fuck..........i'm not supposed to.......I'm like the quintessential weirdo,crazy ,with a even weirder sense of humour.People like me are just too pricey to confess,they feel down once in a while and that they wish they could do something.........holy fuck........its like a gimmick.....we all play them everyday....don't you guys realize............all o you have given yourselves a role to play that's why you're scared to do certain stuff.Nice bois cant break a girls heart,FUCKING REPUTATION,but they eventually do.............its just sad.....and i feel down.......i really don't know what i want,or maybe i do but I'm too scared to realise it all!Thats the thing you people go through too.........we all are here to get comfort,that's our purpose,THATS THE POINT OF IT ALL,think about it.We blog,why?COMFORT..........its about COMFORT...........and we are always looking around........restlessly for it.........you're still looking...you always will.

PSST-TRIVIA-Friends are pimps............YOU PIMPS!

INDIE(D)

yellow yeverybody!AH I LOVE THIS PIC.........i'm the god of this blog...........SHEESH!
alritey then just as i promised my very new play list is here.........its mostly indie BUT......I've got some other songs too......i suggest if yer pissed with life,bored with your present company,the idiot box is not really exciting you that much and well if wikipedia ain't that wicked anymore.........LISTEN TO THIS........yeah....well i think I'm finally over that phase when i had to ignore certain songs.......i can totally listen to mushy songs without any sinking feeling......so I'm good......GOOD........so yeah just scroll down and listen to all of them not in a day....but well sometime........and hey........its just one o those days when you feel NEW.......like you just got this make over.........like a car after carwash......or when they jazz it up on Pimp My ride........I'm not happy....i just feel new.........and well i don't know why but......i just feel like saying "I love you all"......yessss zats gloopy........but you know you want the "lurve"...........hehehheh..........what the world needs is love........so if you've got it wear it like a glove..........alrite.......all o you........DON'T DO DRUGS.......heheheheh..........don't smoke grass,don't eat it either............hehehe.........ok now I've lost it..........AS IN MY MIND.........so later............a better time.............but yeah no better place...........THAN THIS,PISS PISS PISS!!!

PSST-"you're an acid junkie college flunky dirty puppy daddy bastard"...........yes the power of slut music........you just forget if it all even has a meaning ........SLOOOOOOOOOTY!
AND......do comment on the playlist.........as in what song you guys liked or loved........yes.......zats all.....i'm done..........i promise!

THE INNER CIRCLE

Curbside Prophet's Note-THIS IS THE BIGGEST SECRET EVER......C.I.A. officials can go chomp on their "bundles of joy".......it consists of 5 dames....Electric bitch,Motor bitch,Chippy,Sissy Pink and Senti munni.....we are thickest of pals......we're all weird in our own way........i'm just the weirdest.........and well this video has everyone BUT the person who is technically responsible for the formation(MOI a.k.a Electric bitch).......yes yes ....."we're gonna be friends together and apart".The video ended abruptly but that keeps it raw and fun to watch......heheh.....and yes in the end of the video mridul looks like"What went wrong with my friends?!?!"......heheh

psst-I'M NOT IN THIS VIDEO :(:(:(.......fuckety fishin france flippin.........and the ones who don't like us.......just one word...........BOLLOCKS!:p....and to the restored palsheeeps........WAY TO GO!

THE NEW LOOK!

This new template........is STRICTLY dedicated to Jack(White)...........and this song called "I never met a girl like you before"........no thats"fell in love with a girl".......but this is a song i'm hooked on lately......sigh....i'm taking a breaking from all this issshtudies for the exam tommorrow.............and very soon there will an all "indie rock" playlist here.........you just have to scroll to the end of the page.......so to all the Red ,Black and White..............Jah Bless!


psst-hey wish me luck.......seriously!

LOVE-not a bedtime story!

"I love you!"
"really"
"HELL YEAH!!I know i do!"
"awww!I love you too!"

sigh.......you all have thought about this typical convo a quarter of a million times!yeah even those who say "love is monkey crap".For me a teen(i think I'll be one all my life!)this thing is one crazy puzzle!What the dickens!!How do you know you're in it........and even when you have to get outta it you have to know if you were EVER IN IT,RIGHT?!?!?!?Well I'm not the only one scratching her head!They say true love never dies,"they" as in these filmmakers.They sure know how to fool you.....get a cliched star crossed love story,put in some love scenes,a little sappy speech and a dramatic climax..and we go home wondering "WOW!that was so cute!"someones totally "phony" love story squeezed in 2hrs!I feel love is "good shit"........an oxymoron!Seriously,it has to be some what a "biggie".No wonders they give their lives or have a love child!DAMN !A KID,that has got to be love...if not then its such a waste of time,money,energy and A CHILD!
i really don't know if I've been there but i could have been there.Sweaty palms,red ears and corny lines......the "good stuff".I guess we all feel happy when we're aloof.Even content maybe.its only when we know of the existence of this thing called "love" that we feel like aliens,like theres someone who knows us better and then the alien's quest begins!TO LOOK FOR HIS MATE!He looks everywhere,school,cheesy May Queen's Ball,lame choir parties,combined exams and even online............you name it and we teens have tried our luck there!Then when the alien finds his suitable mate the test begins.....questions,flirting,fights,a little gaging here and there.A constant analysis goes on(the human archive is HUGE!)The gen comes from everywhere....the whereabouts,everything from likes and dislikes,common interests.And finally the analysis is done."WELCOME TO THE LOVE CHAMBER,PLEASE SAY "I LOVE YOU" TO VERIFY".............and press enter!the symptoms now are----a constant sinking feeling,dazed outlook,"What a Wonderful world" is the tune you're hooked on to.some become giggly,some become all grave and serious others involve an entire bunch o friends...yeah a party for all!!!Hhehehheheh...so now the alien feels at home..."I'm special"!There is nothing more emo than a teen in love....even ET's a bit colder,YEAH trust me!
But then DOOMSDAY COMES............the mate turns out to be a snitch breaking the alien's heart.......and its funny how everyone takes this "Natural calamity".Some get hooked to songs like (AHEM,BARF!)"Lonely-Akon"....................i just want to tell them you're never going to get lucky if you keep singing that loser of a song.Some "walk a lonely road".......i pray they get hit by a truck,maybe heaven is a party!Some put freaky pictures of bleeding hands,tears of blood and pathetic quotes.WHY SO GOTH!?!?!?Leave the goth community alone,as it is they they feel life is unfair and no one loves them........and that's not it some of them go "diet goth" or emo.....why the hell?!?!?once you're over your unlucky pash you'll get back to your gay music(no offence to my pink friends!)STOP IT GUYS!don't just use these gimmicks to make a point,you guys just look like total posers.And whats with the dulls ville anthem"Right here waiting for you"???you're no handicapped goon,what the hell are you waiting for.........MOVE ON........you're just 17 or 18 or maybe 22.......its not over.......and if you still think it is...my heart bleeds for you........HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAH!
More than love,people in love puzzle me.I've had 4 crushes till date and i did nothing about them(yeah with an exception)REGRET!NO!life's too short for that and I'm too much of a egoistical hussy for thinking that way!But yeah i could've done something about them.I learnt alot from every crush though........and well also that its much more exciting to confess than sit back and watch them prancing around,hehhehehhe!They were nice old fellows........not too old though...Sometimes i feel like a wuss........but then I've got my fellow wussy cats all around the globe.And as the lines goes"“That's why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they'd call them something else.”
conclusion.........we all have alot of love around of us but we are only truly HAPPY...when we can personify it!

PSST-with every comment you save an orphan's life,If you say "NO" to commenting you say "DEATH" to an orphan......Give them life!!!!

ENOUGH SAID !Its picture time!

JACK WHITE.........*drools*................JACK WHITE.........*drools*
...and thats pretty easy on the eyes.....eh?
Ah i love the "gay filth".........Nevermind the buzzcocks is RAD!




Electric six-"you're a superstar at the gay bar!!!!"

.............and i still don't know the exact connection of this symbol with DMB!!!!








This is hardcore.................................ROMANTIC.....sheesh!!!!!

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